flapabstainer's Recovery Journal

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flapabstainer

Fapstronaut
Entry #1

It's been 4 days since i signed up and i joined the subreddit. Already relapsed 2 times. Both of them due to binging and edging on livestream sites and chatrooms. For some reason i've had the impression that they are better than watching full on porn. And i know its completely wrong, but fighting my lizard brain that demands stimulation (partly reasonable, after all these years of endless dopamine rushes) seems so hard at times.

I thought maybe i should be adding up methods of accountability, instead of the other way around for now. So along with weekly/biweekly entries on progress im gonna update this thread on times i browsed a site or downloaded an app that i foolishly believe is better than going on pornhub.

Feel free to chime in with advice from your jouneys and encouregment, they are more than welcome.
 
Entry #2
See as you can see, the more you f*ck around, the more you're going to find out.

This time around i did so by edging on reddit porn and snapchat sellers. Not once, not twice,
but 3 (!) times this week already. Deleted both apps off my phone yesterday.

I feel dissapointed, but all the while motivated to keep trying. Today i distracted myself from bad thoughts by going to the gym and keeping busy. Let's hope it works in improving both my looks and my ability to grasp on temptation. Amen
 
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