flat line?

I am 30 days no PMO or so i tey not keep count but i feel like i have seriously flatline now , i mean i do get urges to look at hot girls on insta or twitter but ive blocked them i also but a blocker to prevent watching P i mean i could easily find disable and tbh i have and looked at girls on instagram and i pinch myself saying they are a woman not a sexual object shes just a normal person and keep repeating over and over i came across revealing stuff and i felt my stomach tight up and i felt sick i had to turn it off but i could feel like i wanted to get turn on but my whole imbodiment was preventing me. I now wills top testing myself like this but dont count this as a relapse as i was trying to associate looking at women like looking at men they are not objects but they are people and u must respect people so when u see a bit of cleeve or what ever look away and slap myself if i think any dirty thoughts... but funny thing is i dont want to fap... at all? So i think im flat lining.... saying that i still have alot of fantasies when i sleeping and i cant get a decent night sleep its alost like i act out in my sleep now and honestly the dreams could just be a dream about fapping and orgasming... i noticed it is getting easier now where as first two weeks i was like this is impossible... so i certainly cant ever relapse because i never want to go through that first two weeks again