It's depression man. I know the drill… I felt dead inside so I binge PMOed just to feel something... to "be alive" even if only for a brief moment. It's hard to explain it to someone who has not experienced this emotional black hole by himself.
I could have wrote your post! I’m in the same position. I did at one point think my libido came back after 2 weeks in ... but it was a false alarm I’m about day 20 now, no sex drive, been out on dates with a couple of really hot women, kissed them at the end of the night etc expecting to feel something - but nope, nothing there. I do feel depressed so not sure if it’s flatline or depression. I think depression... I bet if I went to the porn my P would be fine. I’m just going to stay off of that, and see how many days I can continue for. I’m desperate to see if I come out the other side, no more PIED.. that’s why I’m doing this I just don’t have any sexual desires...
Totally feel your pain man, PIED ****ing sucks! I've had it since I was 15! the first time a girl went to give me head- nothing, not even a semi, she gobbled on my floppy for 5-10 minutes before I told her to stop, It was the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to me and it destroyed my confidence with girls, but I could get hard to porn so I just thought I was nervous.. It took me 5 years... 5 years to realize my problem and still now, 7 years on (since my first experience at 15) I finally think I might make it this time. Keep going man no matter how long it takes, I've been fapping to porn daily since I was 12/13 and been a severe addict since I was probably 14-15.... If I can make it this far then you can too.. you will notice gradual improvements..
Near enough identical to me. Stay the course brother. It can take a long time to reboot under that circumstance but it will be worth it a temporary shit place for a better future.
How did that go with your wife? Does she know you're doing the nofap? I haven't hit the flatlining yet as I'm 7 days inn right now. I haven't told my wife I'm doing the nofap. I don't know what's going to happen when I hit the flatline Barry but we don't have sex that often anyway maybe I can shoot under her radar
It’s going fine. Yes she know about it. She is very supportive and is happy that I’m trying to better myself. It was the best decision I’ve made. It might not go that way with others though...but I still think it best to be honest about it. She will be able o tell something is different anyway with all the mood swings and withdrawal symptoms.
I think it's best to tell your wife. You might be surprised about how supportive she can be and she would be there for you in times of struggle and depression. I know it's been very beneficial for me in my recovery. She's my best friend and I know she always has my back.
Hey bro Hope your feeling better by now Ik basically going through the same thing I'm almost 20days in. I think the best thing to do us be kind to yourself and be patient with yourself. Dont let your mind get the best of you. You can do this
