So, I just got flatline a few hours ago, and it's been quite scary. I'm actually quite anxious, depressed, focused, and feeling other things right now. But, what startled me was the sudden desire to buy things. I have some accounts online that have virtual shops with items that I can easily purchase if I punch in my card details, but I don't think it's a normal urge. I believe my body just craves dopamine so it wants me to engage in a thoughtless activity like buying things for stimulation. I'm actually quite intrigued by this response, and wanted to share my discovery. Maybe you have similar urges that are not related to PMO, but can elevate your dopamine levels too. Can anyone relate to this?
Yes, i can relate to this. When I flatlined, I just felt like "blah" the whole day. I started watching a lot more TV (binge-watching old TV shows). The TV habit declined in a few days, however. For me, it was a temporary part of the transition. I've read or heard somewhere that addictions can be replaced by others (i.e. alcoholics might turn to food in place of their alcoholic addiction), so it might be the same thing. For me, understanding what was happening was essential to moving through it. I would challenge you to make sure you focus on your fundamentals right now: exercise, nutrition, your big WHY, and your relationships. You want to continue building good habits while your mind is rebooting.
I personally just gave into feeling like shit, knowing that its the bodys way of healing. Expect it to last for ages Flop about on bed, Keep busy, do what you can to deal with it, And before you know it, your through the withdrawals. Two months of feeling like shit is a small price to pay for being PMO free and getting back to being a normal healthy adult.
I agree. Two months of feeling shit to finally having the fog lifted away from your brain. It's only been 20 days for me but now I realized how often sexual thoughts creep into my mind and hijack my attention. F--- PMO and all the grief I have inflicted upon myself.
Caffiene cravings are somewhat prevalent during my reboot; although, I don't actually indulge too often.
I have a general lack of motivation right now. I'm craving something. Something to fill my time besides porn but I want it to be easy like porn. Simple to do. That's why I have been binge-watching movies. I think there's something wrong about binge-watching and it's a habit I want to kick. I should try to do something simple and slightly harder than vegging out in front of my computer. I'm thinking maybe picking up my old violin or coding a small web application up.
Personally, I enjoy reading and playing my guitar. Although, I must agree with you regarding the attitude towards binge-watching TV/movies. Pick up that violin!!!
I'm also asking this question. My best guess would be the reality test > being with a girl, feeling healthy arousal and actual connection with her, and perhaps wanting to make love to that person (in stead of tapping that ass) , does this make sense? From a personal observation on my progress, I am now 'on fire' all the time when I think about some of the gorgeous girls I have met recently and each time I'm trying not to think about them because it's making me literally tired. But having said this - I 'm still not 100% sure I'm healed. Also because progress goes with ups and downs...
