FML. I am so goddamn depressed today. I do not have many real life friends anymore. I isolated myself. Attempted suicide 3 times. Got hospitalized in the emergency psych unit 3 weeks ago. To cope I got help from IGY on this site. He did not care if I posted several posts a day with endless psychotic and depressive rants. I just needed someone to listen without judgement and I got that. I visited a friend of mine today, a girl. She is moving to London soon. That ruined my day. I saw two movies with her but when I left I just stood there, out in the snow crying. Then I came back home to post a new rant about my miserable feelings to IGY. Since he is always is listening. Now he is gone. I am sobbing. R.I.P IGY.