Foot fetish/Femdom/Cuckold Addiction

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  1. SheldonCooper0101

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    I have a foot fetish since I was a kid. Slowly this build on to become a femdom fetish and more recently I got a cuckold fetish. I love watching the slave serve the mistress feet while the bull fucks her. It’s absolutely disgusting. I even jerked off to the mistress forcing the slave to lick the feet of the bull. Its so shitty mate. Even worse, I’ve never felt attracted to the though of penetrating someone. I’ve even visited a strip club and didn’t even have an erection. I only get erect through humiliation. That's really depressing. Having a foot addiction is perhaps worse than porn addiction as a fully clothed girl with only her feet showing might get me aroused. Even when a girl is rude to me, I get aroused through the humiliation. I remember that I only had foot and humiliation fetish at the very beginning. Through porn, I developed a femdom and cuckold fetish too.

    I wanna have sex too, but, this just doesn't arouse me. I'm so tired of all these shit. I did a terrible terrible thing. I used to really love a girl some years back. We never went out together but I was desperately in love with her. When she did not reciprocate my love for her, I started becoming more desperate and obsessive. Eventually when she was rude to me, I started masturbating while watching her feet pictures on social media and imagining her humiliate me. With time, I became more obsessed with her feet. I've moved on from her eventually but still masturbate while watching her feet/leg pics. More recently, I did something more disgusting. I filmed myself masturbating while watching her feet pics and constantly telling myself that am her slave, I love feet, she deserves to be have sex with real man, am her cuckold, i wish to spend my life at your feet and will also worship your man feet. Immediately after relapsing, I deleted the video and instantly regretted everything. I feel terrible for her cuz she is a very sweet and simple person. She just doesn't deserve this. If she knew that I performed all these disgusting acts, she would instantly block me.

    It's so strange. I have never even saw in a sexual way when I was in love and now am doing all these. I have apologized a lot in my heart. She is ignoring me recently too and I really deserve this. She should not have a disgusting person like me as a friend. I have also slide more into cuckoldry recently and even fantasized about being a cuck to my best friend and her girlfriend. I made a count the other day and I have masturbated while watching the feet of around 80 girls. That's so pathetic. I think I might have a self-worth issue. I tend to sexualize all my rejections. The only positive thing is that am working and doesn't have much time to look at porn. Please advice me on what should i do. I think I'm a bottom. I am only submissive in private though. If someone tries to boss me in public, I could smack his/her ass and would be very angry. Yet, am a submissive bitch in private. Immediately after relapse, I feel angered and frustrated.

    Have been attempting to move on from this freaking fetish for years but instead became more addicted. This humiliation fetish is absolutely disgusting. The only positive point is that I'm quite focused on my career and this addiction has not taken over my life completely. Is there anyone here who did not feel excited about penetration but they are now?
     
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  2. amnesiac21

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    I am struggling with something similar. Don't lose hope. Keep fighting and remind yourself of your worth at all times. We're all in this together.
     
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  3. fedmom

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    There's a thread in my profile for help with femdom addiction.
    It's masochism so means you have low serotonin which can be increased with swear words as swear words come from the limbic system. 5-htp tablets should also work but might have side effects.

    https://www.vox.com/2014/8/26/6066069/swearing-science-obscenity-research
    "swearing seems to activate the autonomic nervous system"

    https://theshoeman647325124.wordpress.com/category/medicalisation/
    "Odynophilic (masochistic) pleasures derived from pain trigger a reaction from the autonomic nervous system."
     
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  4. I also get aroused by femdom.
     
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  5. SheldonCooper0101

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    Watching porn and femdom has almost became a habit for me bro..
     
  6. Ónitrix

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    I have foot fetich too since I was a child but not so Xtreme like you men,I admit that feet have a very great influence in the way I treat a person and most at whomen,if I like her feet it'd be enough to fall in love with her,I don't like all feet like any other I like beautifull and delicate,I've been in relations with whomen who i like their feet and when i remenber them their feet is what comes to my mind
     
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  7. SheldonCooper0101

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    I have to do it mate...Tired of all these shit
     
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    Wow how did you achieve a 22 days streak?
     
  10. SheldonCooper0101

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    So true dude..Must fight the panic then
     
  11. SheldonCooper0101

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    Yes bro..I'm way too extreme. I get disgusted by my own behaviour
     
  12. fedmom

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    Feet is just about the most mild perversion but even that is curable.
     
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  13. I am committed to not masturbating. Something that has worked for me is to fight the anxiety and stress that most times comes with arousal when you are on this program. I used to get so stressed out about being aroused and that stress would actually push me to masturbate. The past 3 weeks I have been able to not get stressed out when I get aroused. I simply accept the arousal and enjoy the feeling it brings me. I do not take any action to stimulate things - masturbate. And soon enough the arousal passes. FEMDOM still is arousing to me, but I can control my own actions and response to it.
     
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  14. SheldonCooper0101

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    Do you have any specific plan for that bro?
     
  15. SheldonCooper0101

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    If i sweat at myself, I'll be humiliating myself and I have a massive humiliation fetish.
     
  16. PappinAce

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    Oh man. I dealt with pretty much the same thing. You are not alone in this. This made it difficult to lose my virginity. I was into some weird shit, but when I engaged in the stuff that made another person feel good, ("eating out" as they put it) I was more turned on by having that control over the woman I loved than I was by any of the grotesque stuff that I had fantasized about throughout my adolescent years. It really surprised me.

    Believe me, even if you think you're a disgusting monster, there is hope for you. It simply becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy that "I can only get turned on by so and so" because we are so lost in the ideals that our own corrupted brains have created for ourselves. Then, when the real thing comes to us, we try to make our own fantasies happen instead of going with the flow. If you let the flow actually happen, you may discover something new about yourself.

    Keep your head up. Every day is new.
     
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  17. blunt.ever

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    Hi, bro. I am struggling with same problem, idem with you, but I don't view cuckold not because would like, so because is very humiliation for me. And all these its addes in my subconstient. I want to escape of foot fetish, help me, please!
     
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  19. dragonaire

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    First: feet emit a great amount of pheromones, so the armpits. So if u are sensitive to pheromones then there's nothing odd that you feel attracted to feet.

    The humiliation fetish might be caused of the way you were raised or treated as a child. But lemme tell you that the sexual fetishes you might have doesnt translate on the way you act outside sexual scenarios. As an example: a successful CEO might be attracted to be a submissive to a Domme/Dom. And there's nothing wrong with you being attracted to that kind of BDSM world.

    My suggestion: try it. In real life, but under reason. Try finding a Domme/Mistress and explore that side of your sexuality with her
     
  20. dragonaire

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    If you wanna know where your humiliation fetish might have come from, read this book: "Reinventing your life -Jeffrey Young"
     

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