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Hey guys, I’m new here. I appreciate the love & support already shown to me. A few of you saw my comments in another thread on erotic massage parlors and reached out to offer accountability partner help if I needed it.

I’ve been off porn for around 4 months, and detoxing from MO for about 1 month. But…the worst is not forsaken.

I’ve been regulating AMPs for about 3/4 years…longest streak that I’ve withheld has been around 4 months.

Just relapsed last week since January and received HJ and BJ last week. I’m in fear to destroy my marriage and lose my family to this addiction. I need out.

The wife knows about me going cold turkey in leaving porn, but is in the dark about the AMPs.

I’m too fearful to bring that to light…I’m scared of the consequences. I know what they’ll be. She’ll definitely leave me.

That’s why I want to change. I know it’s impossible on my own strength. Only God by his grace can sanctity me into a different man.

I’ll probably start a journal in order to track my progress and stay scout able to the collective body of fapstronauts here. I appreciate all and any responses!
 
March 10th.

Day 8: No visiting massage parlors
Day 23: No self-stimulated MO
Day 92: No porn

Driving around town to go to work and back, I see massage parlors everywhere. They’re nearly in every single business plaza and shopping plaza. My city is infested with them…

Killing the thoughts and rejecting the lies that are proposed to me by my filthy and untrained mind.

Thank you Lord for your grace! Realizing that enjoying the good & righteous pleasures in my wife and kids is wayyyyyy more satisfying and edifying in the bigger picture!
 
Hey man - just wanted to stop in since you've been so supportive on my journal. I think a lot of my experience with strip clubs parallels what you're describing about AMPs. I'll admit that I've been tempted to AMPs sometimes myself, but I know the rabbit hole I went down with the clubs and figure it will be the same thing all over again.

I know you've been looking at my journal a lot but just to summarize - I spent a period of roughly seven years frequenting strip clubs. At my worst I was going once a week. As of now I've managed over 250 days without stepping into one of those places. I believe you're capable of doing the same - I will pray for you and wish you the best.

PS - Small suggestion, you might want to consider moving your thread into the journaling section if you want to do this regularly. There are other guys in there who journal about stuff other than PMO.
 
Pathfinder01 said:
Hey man - just wanted to stop in since you've been so supportive on my journal. I think a lot of my experience with strip clubs parallels what you're describing about AMPs. I'll admit that I've been tempted to AMPs sometimes myself, but I know the rabbit hole I went down with the clubs and figure it will be the same thing all over again.

I know you've been looking at my journal a lot but just to summarize - I spent a period of roughly seven years frequenting strip clubs. At my worst I was going once a week. As of now I've managed over 250 days without stepping into one of those places. I believe you're capable of doing the same - I will pray for you and wish you the best.

PS - Small suggestion, you might want to consider moving your thread into the journaling section if you want to do this regularly. There are other guys in there who journal about stuff other than PMO.
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Bro, thanks for the kind words, support, and suggestions! I def know it’s possible to stop that kind of behavior and you are a testament to that! I’ve been very encouraged by your story Man. I’ve been binging your journal for the past week. Im still not caught up, but in page 22! Haha I’ll be caught up soon! :)

Glad to join the team and beat this thing! The Lord is good! :)
 
God is good, remember you are saved by Christ and he will lead you as long as you are willing. Scripture and prayer are your friend. They may not kill the urges/temptations but they will heal your mind and soul and help you get in a right relationship with your savior.

These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.
John 16:33
 
F14 said:
God is good, remember you are saved by Christ and he will lead you as long as you are willing. Scripture and prayer are your friend. They may not kill the urges/temptations but they will heal your mind and soul and help you get in a right relationship with your savior.

These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.
John 16:33
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Amen brother. Thanks for the encouragement. Scripture and prayer are essential in all this. The solution to these problems is never within us, but outside of us. In Christ & his Word.

It’s so true. Those means of grace do heal and restore the mind! I’ve been studying Hosea as of late, and in Hosea 11:1-4, the Lord reminds Israel that it was he who redeemed them. Out of Egypt and taught them how to walk and healed them and provided everything they needed. Such a tender picture of a loving father. I’ve been so struck just consider king the affection of the Father in reading that.
 
March 15th.

Day 13: No visiting massage parlors
Day 28: No M
Day 92: No Porn

Had urges last night as I lay in bed…need to be more disciplined and not let my mind take control of my imagination which will then take control of desires and intentions, which then turns into action.

Lord, help me dwell on you and see your grace in all that you have provided me. I’m truly grateful to be able to even be on this forum and splurge out my deepest and most troubled desires. Help me reign in whatever looming list is in me and help me honor you with what I create and multiply in the virtual reality of my mind. Help me mortify the flesh and its passion, which initially only exist in my mind and imagination. Help me eradicate them before they give birth to sin. (James 1:12-18)

Lord, thank you for these anonymous brothers that are holding the line with me and even encouraging me to pursue righteousness. Give them grace as well Lord.
 
Pathfinder01 said:
Small suggestion, you might want to consider moving your thread into the journaling section if you want to do this regularly.
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Brother, how do I move this thread into the journaling section? Or will I need to just create a new one in that section?
Thanks!
 
Bradziggler1990 said:
Hey guys, I’m new here. I appreciate the love & support already shown to me. A few of you saw my comments in another thread on erotic massage parlors and reached out to offer accountability partner help if I needed it.

I’ve been off porn for around 4 months, and detoxing from MO for about 1 month. But…the worst is not forsaken.

I’ve been regulating AMPs for about 3/4 years…longest streak that I’ve withheld has been around 4 months.

Just relapsed last week since January and received HJ and BJ last week. I’m in fear to destroy my marriage and lose my family to this addiction. I need out.

The wife knows about me going cold turkey in leaving porn, but is in the dark about the AMPs.

I’m too fearful to bring that to light…I’m scared of the consequences. I know what they’ll be. She’ll definitely leave me.

That’s why I want to change. I know it’s impossible on my own strength. Only God by his grace can sanctity me into a different man.

I’ll probably start a journal in order to track my progress and stay scout able to the collective body of fapstronauts here. I appreciate all and any responses!
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You should tell your wife so that you get a massive wake up call and reality check. Whether she decides to leave you or not. You will have to live with that. Rather than live with a lie that you've been cheating on her behind her back with prostitutes.. just imagine if she was doing what you are. Pretty gross.
 
The worst is over said:
You should tell your wife so that you get a massive wake up call and reality check. Whether she decides to leave you or not. You will have to live with that. Rather than live with a lie that you've been cheating on her behind her back with prostitutes.. just imagine if she was doing what you are. Pretty gross.
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To be honest, I can’t do it.

And I’ve left that lifestyle behind. I’m done with it. I’m not living with the guilt anymore because I’ve moved away from that.

That’s the truth. And the truth of the matter is that I will take some things to the grave with me that only God knows about me.

Kinda like the Scarlett Letter. Have you ever read that book?
 
Bradziggler1990 said:
To be honest, I can’t do it.

And I’ve left that lifestyle behind. I’m done with it. I’m not living with the guilt anymore because I’ve moved away from that.

That’s the truth. And the truth of the matter is that I will take some things to the grave with me that only God knows about me.

Kinda like the Scarlett Letter. Have you ever read that book?
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Fair enough. If I were you at the very least I would hold myself to it that if I ever did it again then I’d have to tell her. That should be enough for you to never go back.
 
Trust me man, I’m like your name; “the worst is over.”

Btw, are you a man or a woman? Curious, because I’ve only been called out to take such action by women on this forum.
 
Bradziggler1990 said:
Trust me man, I’m like your name; “the worst is over.”

Btw, are you a man or a woman? Curious, because I’ve only been called out to take such action by women on this forum.
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I don't lie about my gender, you can see it says male. I can see why women would be more inclined to tell you that. But the main reason I suggested it is because it would hold you accountable like nothing else could. And that would include for pmo, not just this prostitute issue you've had.
 
The worst is over said:
I don't lie about my gender, you can see it says male. I can see why women would be more inclined to tell you that. But the main reason I suggested it is because it would hold you accountable like nothing else could. And that would include for pmo, not just this prostitute issue you've had.
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Trust me…me coming clean with my wife about porn after hiding and lying to her about me being “free” from it for like 7 years was a crazy pivotal moment in our marriage. It’s held me accountable from porn and masturbation. And then being accountable here about visiting massage parlors has been very effective so far.

Haven’t relapsed yet and not planning to. I’m done with that life.

And so I’m on this forum to just affirm that new vantage point and perspective in my life and to encourage others. And also to be encouraged by the story of other guys.

How about you? Why are you on here?
 
Bradziggler1990 said:
Trust me…me coming clean with my wife about porn after hiding and lying to her about me being “free” from it for like 7 years was a crazy pivotal moment in our marriage. It’s held me accountable from porn and masturbation. And then being accountable here about visiting massage parlors has been very effective so far.

Haven’t relapsed yet and not planning to. I’m done with that life.

And so I’m on this forum to just affirm that new vantage point and perspective in my life and to encourage others. And also to be encouraged by the story of other guys.

How about you? Why are you on here?
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I'm not so easily impressed, so if you want to encourage others like myself you'll have to prove that you really mean your words. You look like you've been doing ok for now, but its very early still. I don't say this to drag you down, just being honest. I hope you do back up your words far into the future. I was feeling very confident myself during the first week of this new streak and just now out of nowhere got slightly triggered by something unexpected. It's so easy to fall back into hell. But I pray that neither of us do. It's not worth it, there is so much more to life. May God give you strength.
 
Thanks for putting this out there. I have struggled with PMO since I was a child but even worse than that, I have gotten caught up with AMPs in the past…
If it wasn’t for the financial aspect making it harder to hide- I would have a real problem there. There are still times where I was close to going and ended up not. Lately I’ve been having problems going to cybersex sites like Omegle.. that is another trap you do not want to get stuck in.

I am also married and have a child. I am filled with shame for going to such depths to feed this monster. My wife does not know about any of it, like you I am too afraid. For me, I think even the pornography would be too much for her. I hate it for you but it helps to know I am not alone.
 
The worst is over said:
I'm not so easily impressed, so if you want to encourage others like myself you'll have to prove that you really mean your words. You look like you've been doing ok for now, but its very early still. I don't say this to drag you down, just being honest. I hope you do back up your words far into the future. I was feeling very confident myself during the first week of this new streak and just now out of nowhere got slightly triggered by something unexpected. It's so easy to fall back into hell. But I pray that neither of us do. It's not worth it, there is so much more to life. May God give you strength.
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Hey bro, I’m not trying to impress you. Haha I actually want to only impress myself and price to myself that I’m a man of my word. And yea man, I know he struggle. I had a crazy day today and almost got triggered but was able to calm down and was actually surprised by how I didn’t seek to “relieve myself” after our heated argument. A few months ago, if the same thing happened, I would have gone to watch porn or gone to an AMP to have some random person “love on me.”

I’m glad that I’m in a place of my sexual detox where I’m not enslaved to the impulses of my brain but am actively submitting it to my will and convictions. It’s amazing to be Ina place of more self control and discipline. All by God grace. I honestly don’t know how the heck I’ve been able to handle and disregard the “false promises” of the sexual urges.
 
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plzbreak said:
Thanks for putting this out there. I have struggled with PMO since I was a child but even worse than that, I have gotten caught up with AMPs in the past…
If it wasn’t for the financial aspect making it harder to hide- I would have a real problem there. There are still times where I was close to going and ended up not. Lately I’ve been having problems going to cybersex sites like Omegle.. that is another trap you do not want to get stuck in.

I am also married and have a child. I am filled with shame for going to such depths to feed this monster. My wife does not know about any of it, like you I am too afraid. For me, I think even the pornography would be too much for her. I hate it for you but it helps to know I am not alone.
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Bro, the pornography won’t be too much for her. Trust me. It’s like a statistical fact that a majority of men watch porn either occasionally, consistently, or obsessively. So it might surprise your wife, but it’s nowhere close to the harm that prostitution can do to your family.

I’ve found that revealing my porn addiction has given me the grounds and conviction to forsake and fight the AMP addiction. I shed light on part of it and the rest of the monster started to die off as well.

But, in the end, it’s your choice. Also, a trusted pastor would be very helpful to confide in.
 
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