Four days

Four days. Yes every day for four days I have turned to porn, and in two of those days I Oed. I’m tried of it, I’m almost tired of living. I need to stop, I have tried so many times but I have no idea how. This habit has almost completely ruined my life. Even on my strongest days I cannot ever seem to get past one week.

I’m tired of this. I need to break free, somehow.

 

I hope so. I’ve been in a terrible cycle since I was like 14... Have never been able to go longer then two weeks. But recently it’s been like every 5 days, except the last few days, its been everyday. I will keep trying. I want to be free. What are your tricks? Right now my addiction is so strong I don’t have a single ounce of strength in me to fight it and I give in right away.

 

Thank you so much. I will take this to heart. I like how you said not to study why I relapsed is scary. Never thought of that.

 

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Welcome @LariJ. You have made the second step towards real recovery. The first step being acknowledging your problem, and the 2nd being confessing it to someone else. We can beat this addiction together.

 

Thanks so much for the support. It’s much appreciated

 

Just thought I’d put an update so I can keep my mind fixed on this.

I haven’t relapsed thankfully which at this point is good for me. Just to reach 24 hours clean is going to be big.

I’m still filled with so much emptiness. Funny how I can be filled with nothing. I seem to just be going through the motions of work and life without thinking. I’m just kinda there breathing and working but no emotion no feeling no life.

I worry once this feeling passed I’ll relapse again. That’s always how it’s been. Same stupid cycle. Same stupid pattern.

 

Thanks @Always be positive for the help. I have actually been vegan for the last year. It’s actually really helped my mental state.