I'm so sorry to hear that. I really hope you can get a positive impact from the people here, again. I haven't been doing too well, either, to be honest.
Step 4 day 3 Was peeking today to be honest, without real need tho just started doing it randomly..didnt really fully relapse but still it wasnt necessary at all.I will keep going with this streak and focus on more important things and gonna complete the fifth step as well (in a row). Im getting tired of this shit, have other things to do.
Fucked up yesterday. Miscalculated. Starting again for awareness. Step 1 completed. Approaching Step 2
Step 3 day 2, from now on when I cant handle the urge Im just gonna masturbate on my own (gonna go like this for 1,2 or 3 months) in order to break that po*n habit, last time I relapsed I did it and I didnt feel that bad at all, I wasnt washed up with 0 energy and I wasnt wasting my time, also I kinda feel less pressure of relapsing and Im not trying to peek at instagram. Definitely gonna try it out because last few years I was trying to break free going fully clean but didnt have that much success really so now Im switching lanes and heading to complete recovery step by step.
Hard to believe but I made it through Level 10! (not factorial) It took me 2 whole months but who's counting. I feel like I'm slowly regaining control of myself. It's a very tough fight and it's far from over but my resolve strengthens a tiny bit with every good move I make.
Well done. The next milestone will soon come. Those factorials would be so motivating and practical. The next level only 11 times further! See you in a hundred thousand years.
Step 5 day 2, on my 6th or 7th day I started losing control so I just run to the bathroom and did as fast as possible, I didnt really feel too bad and I was able to control myself after that so I wasnt caught in the cycle. Situation is improving bit by bit for me and I hope you guys are doing even better!
Finally completed the step seven, which was my goal for the second round that I set who knows when. The standard was so far from the intended that I will continue.
