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If you reading this I congratulate and appreciate your efforts for choosing a beautiful life. I thank you to take your valuable time to read this and welcome your worthy suggestions in my learning stages.
I am a male of 24 years time on earth till now. I started using magazines and newspapers celebrities initially for PMO when I was in ninth standard. At that time it gave me a high in life to come out of the feeling of poverty I was carrying around with me.
I felt poor and suppressed at that time due to my family conditions and alcoholism of my father. Although I was very good at studies but a shy one and feel inferior about myself in school. So I rarely talked to any girl till my graduation.
The cycle of PMO is chasing me nearly for 9 years and I started to focus a lot on all this and put my all energy in this rut. But I was never aware that it was an addiction I thought that I am doing consciously every time to feel good and my drive is somewhat higher. But all these rationalizations are lie each time after PMO I felt more depressed and self love is slowly faded. I always tell to me that this would be the last time but I relapsed again and again. I figured out that this is the cause of my depression after the braekup of my three months beautiful relationship.
Then I took responsibility for my life and started to stand upon my values. I read a book named POWER OVER PORNOGRAPHY for 42 days and it helped me to achieve a first time streak of 97 days. But yesterday I relapsed and I accept this as a part of my journey rather than blaming myself I tuned up to find the mistakes and learn from them. So I decided to join this supportive community for regaining my strength for a loving life.
Remember there is space between our stimulus and response and utilising that space for a positive choice is all a beautiful life. Wishing you a beautiful journey ahead.
I am a male of 24 years time on earth till now. I started using magazines and newspapers celebrities initially for PMO when I was in ninth standard. At that time it gave me a high in life to come out of the feeling of poverty I was carrying around with me.
I felt poor and suppressed at that time due to my family conditions and alcoholism of my father. Although I was very good at studies but a shy one and feel inferior about myself in school. So I rarely talked to any girl till my graduation.
The cycle of PMO is chasing me nearly for 9 years and I started to focus a lot on all this and put my all energy in this rut. But I was never aware that it was an addiction I thought that I am doing consciously every time to feel good and my drive is somewhat higher. But all these rationalizations are lie each time after PMO I felt more depressed and self love is slowly faded. I always tell to me that this would be the last time but I relapsed again and again. I figured out that this is the cause of my depression after the braekup of my three months beautiful relationship.
Then I took responsibility for my life and started to stand upon my values. I read a book named POWER OVER PORNOGRAPHY for 42 days and it helped me to achieve a first time streak of 97 days. But yesterday I relapsed and I accept this as a part of my journey rather than blaming myself I tuned up to find the mistakes and learn from them. So I decided to join this supportive community for regaining my strength for a loving life.
Remember there is space between our stimulus and response and utilising that space for a positive choice is all a beautiful life. Wishing you a beautiful journey ahead.
