From Nothing To Worthy

Back_for_Good said:
Alright brother!
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Sorry bro I relapsed watched porn and masturbated after mid night was confused that I couldn't show my face to nofap.com.
All my rewiring is lost.
My problem with separate counting ,I should have stopped PMO on whole.

Actually there is a construction site near me I was annoyed whole night due to noise.
So root problem is sleep control.
I need to find a way to cure my insomanic nights.
If I did that I will control night part then day part is always easy.
But even if I put noise blocker I remain wake till 4 A.M.
 
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Yeah man it is so annoying when you want to sleep but you can't. This usually happens to me as well. What I would like to think is that, "this is a time to rest whether i can sleep or not, I must rest." Like you, I have problem sleeping but when I just tell my brain this is a time to rest, I just keep my eyes closed and eventually I will sleep.

However there were hundreds of time that I said, "fuck! I can't sleep so let's watch porn." but tell yourself that. "fuck! I can't sleep but I need to rest!" also now you know you relapse when you can't sleep so it is time to do something about that. Also, we relapse at some point so don't hide yourself cause that's what your "addict self" wants after all. Good luck!
 
The answer is obvious brother. I am also lazy and feel like I am a "zombie". But why?
1) PMO sucks your will or motivation to do things. Even small activities such as getting out of your bed after an alarm might be hard.
2) We constantly eliminate our semen and full production of semen takes around 30 days. So our body is constantly at making semen so our energy goes there as well.
3) Time: we spend a lot of time on finding the perfect porn, video or cam site and that also will drain men's energy.
There is a lot to say why you or me don't feel energetic or lazy. But I want to mention that even though PMO drains your energy, you can still reboot, and make changes to your life. Brother, don't get confused on laziness from PMO and laziness from personality. For instance, I sometimes become lazy even though I didn't PMO.
 
I m 100% sure now after experiencing ups and downs of relapsing and then rewiring that once ejaculated during rewiring, energy levels tumble and go below than normal, semen re-production takes time and a significant part of male energy force especially during balancing period of mind. Also less amount of sleep or sleeping very late at night produces similar effects of laziness.
I am not lazy in personality but during the rebalancing I often find myself so lazy to even talk
 
I am back guys with new epiphany.
I didn't had any purpose in life,jerking off and telling lies to my parents about studying but after Screenshot_2023-04-10-23-02-49-210_com.google.android.youtube.jpgBut after watching this video,I realized that how meaningless I may have become but I can't be as horrible as concentration camp.
So what is my purpose of life.
I think nofap is clearly a purpose.
Purpose are an illusion to live a life,a life without purpose leads to death.
Victor Frankl says find something to live and die for,right now I have none.
I hate my college,I HV no friends,no girlfriend so only purpose I can see is to help those men whose life have been destroyed by nofap.
I think I m close to find the purpose in my life.
I can be my purpose to live instead of worrying and doing nothing in life.
Porn is just a way to release the emptiness of my life,I found that my life is a nihilistic life so if U choose nofap over porn,I may be actually finding a purpose to live.
I am going to start new day counter from now.
This time I am not going to just stop porn or masturbation or orgasm biut sexual pleasures.
I am going to start a no PMO journey.
Together my brother's we are going nofap just not to avoid porn but get a purpose and avoid the web of illusion of life that keeps widening our meaningless pit and we keep falling in it.


Day 0 : 00.01 Starts now.
 
shred75 said:
Same with me,I fapped 7 hours before I write my new post but check my new post,I got a new a ephiphany to do nofap.
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One last piece of advice, it feels really to the point and sharp when restarting nofap, there is no doubts that cloud your mind now, I can feel u, see u as I was doing the things exactly like u do, the ytber einzelgänger and his contents are very soul soothing indeed. But, u need to have a game plan for urges and reminding the opposite ways u could have acted prior to relapsing is an invaluable ways to withstand undeniable urges. Let me tell give u word of caution: the urges or simply sexual pleasure seeking also comes during happy times, times when u r confident about ur progress, about what u have learned, urges will come and u would think in favour of it rather than against u at that moment...
If not avoided, the confidence will turn to shame and fear, and it will again take time to regain lost ground...
Take it or unmind it, ur choice, as an experienced guy I can only share and divide it
 
Day 4.
No PMO.
Keep going guys, it's all in mind.

When PMO takes place in mind it's dangerous when it's just outside it's normal like sex with gf/wife.
Though I never had real sex just having my thoughts on it.
No cooming.Be brave guys.
It doesn't matter you relapsed,what matters is you realized the porn trap.
Orgasms can be natural sometimes for your body,very healthy thought ,medically speaking but porn is very dangerous and I hope I never watch it.
It just destroys peace.
 
Day 7 without PMO.
Today, I felt sad because I was not invited to a college party. It's just a friend's party for fun, and when I saw that my friends didn't include my name, it made me feel sad. I felt like nobody cared about me. However, I was absent for some time, and maybe they forgot to write my name. I was thinking about when people would start being curious about me.

But wait, is that feeling coming back to me? Do I really want to be loved
again? Wait, seriously, I think I am changing. A fapper who didn't care about feeling of sadness is starting to get sad again because people ignored him.

The heartache that has arisen indicates that my soul is coming back to me. I am starting to feel more human again, rather than a fapping-nihilist in a cage with just "who cares and fuck ideology."

As I was feeling sad, I wanted to be loved again, so I listened to AI Bowly's "Heartache." It made me feel so lonely yet human.
 
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