Keep going bro. Having self-reflection means you are already on the right way. Now what we need is to think of how to keep it constantly. Having guilty is important but remember, do not let it overwhelm you. Have faith in god, just as how he have faith in you. You will surely rebuild a new life and see a unbelievably better version of yourself. There are many others suffering in Nofap as we do. Helping them will also help you out of this. If you don't mind, let me share an inspiring story of success that touches me to you. Hopefully it helps https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/365-days-a-year-after-being-born-again.333813/
Listening to music that makes you sad should not be listened to too often imo. It will actually make you sad and change your mood, at least in my experience. There are a number of songs I avoid on my spotify list even though I like them. Music can actually boost the production of dopamine in your brain!
Day 8. Urges are starting to come back. I hope I don't relapse. I have put my responsibilities before fap this time and I believe I will make it through today.
Day 9 no PMO. Tonight was very hard,I was not getting sleepy so my brain wanted PMO but I realised that it can be withdrawal symptom because it's just few days of abstaining and it shouldn't be any biological urge. Proud moment. Let keep going all.
Back Online on Nofap. After so many days I am back on nofap and I have made it to Day 15 without PMO and I came here to celebrate and give u guys some tips. Just believe that," their is a God whatever you call it,he cares for u". These words will give you power no internet can. Also eat anything,it has nothing to do with eating Also don't believe anything on internet. It's just filled with crap. Also research is flawed. So with this I have made it to past 15 days without even getting the urge I struggled with past. I don't want you to be religious in order to crack this 2 week journey but do remember those bullies who you want to show who is boss. Just do pushups daily. I m doing 50 daily in 10 chunks. And transmute energy physically like lift some objects. You don't even need gym just carry a log or bucket of water. Be strong my friend and become a MAN.
Day 18. Woke up late today but I had a smile on my face. I am again proving to myself that I am worth it. I don't even want to look back at porn neither I have urge to masturbate. I want to avoid PMO because in the journey of 18 days ,I have felt so much satisfied and whatever problem life had for me ,I can solve it with a clean mind. I think nofap is really really good. Look guys it has been great days after nofap. It is also no about counting days but you have to stop looking back as if it wasn't a thing. Thank you guys for your support.
Did 35 pushups today in 10 chunks. Tried some basic kungfu moves,I didn't did exactly in video but after the exercise ,I felt good energy that is what I needed. Also put some Jackie chan movie music in background. I had a unique experience today. I made different poses during an imaginary fight scene and tried to transmutes the sexual energy into punches and kicks. Was feeling very good. Now I am ready to study because my college exams are near. See ya guys. Keep up the good work.
We have all trodden the same road you are on brother, and those of us who have suffered and won our freedom are all with you. It is very important to not beat yourself up if you relapse, this will not destroy all your progress, and the guilt and shame are worse for your mental state than the relapse was. So just laugh off your silly slip up, and move on bro, we have all done those things too. Respect and cheers.
Day 2 I had relapsed like I masturbated at night. But avoided porn and all internet activity orgasm. But I now don't let my body demotivate me , as I already had 18 day streak,I didn't fell weak after I woke up. And I had no shame or remorse of what I did. Drank some water and then eat well and then did pushups and then slept later at night and then same on other day and I hit Day 2 again.
Day 1 completed. This time no edging or tricking. I thought I gonna make it without ejaculation but my hype made me ejaculate at the end. Then I was ashamed but I m ok I was not demotivated. Now it's almost a day past. And I m ready to move on with my experience and focus to break my 18 day streak.
In my life, I have come to point where I realise that I am not who I used to be. I have changed a lot of things in me. But the addictive nature is of PMO still stays ,my last record was 18 days but I relapsed and the behaviour was same. It's making me realise now that it's more difficult to get out of this trap then just counting days or avoiding triggers. It's deepwired in our brain that the conscious mind always thinks it's winning over it but when a little bit of mood changes,it automatically come forward as if it's everything for us,then we combine our fetish and fuck off,then we have shame again. Then people like me comment that we realised it's bad and then we complete day 1 again. But how we are gonna change our inner program that we don't even have control off. Lust! Lust is what I think needs to be controlled. Edging is lust. Trying to stare girls is lust. Watching porn without trying to touch or ejaculate is a fail sport. Similarly learning to edge without ejaculating will eventually make you relapse,yeah this was how my 18 day streak actually ended. Lust! It's all lust! How are we gonna control this lust. Control my friend. Control! It's not that difficult. Just admit first then look for how to change it. Maybe we can make it from day 1 to day Infinity if we had a successful mindset
Day 15. I wish people understood me more. I wish I had chance to speak more. I wish I could have asked her. Then I find I never asked her. I wish I had money. Then I know nobody would give a shit about me. Then I wanted a friend. Then I realize I had no friend. Then I want no porn. But then there is it on my phone. Then I had crush on someone. But then I find they belong to someone. Then I look a movie alone There I find my Joker clone Then I just sleep and do nothing. Damn , Lucky are those who can share their day to day with people. I wish I was here talking with my crush. Then I want a dream of successful person ever.
