From Russia with love

Greetings, my friends!

My name is Denis, I'm 22 y.o. male. I study in medical university, especially interested in mental health and want to become psychiatrist.

I got the addiction since teenage. In that time and until recent 2-3 years I was typical unsocial guy who spent most of time browsing internet and playing videogames.
During my study in university I was trasnforming into much more social guy(parties, alchohol, even drugs) however I still had many relationship, self-esteem, trust and mental health issues - I still had no gf and was obsessed with porn. I had a neurosis and couldn't do anything with it!

Last summer became a crucial moment. Suddenly I started learning about getting rid of my issues and self-improvement. I've spent hours of watching videos on YouTube about motivation and personal growth and read tons of scientific literature about health. And among basic things(like 8-hour sleep) I foud it -- the scientifically proved harm of porn and benefits of nofap.
While searching for ways of self-improvement I turned into orthodox christianity.
The Church greatly spurred my desire to grow, improve and get rid of porn addiction(7.thou shalt not commit adultery)! So I started working on myself: getting 8-hour sleep, eating 3-4 times a day, quitting drugs and porn...

"The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak"
But my way was full of obstacles. I was relapsing again and again. I've never gone further than 12 days. Sometimes I just saw a pic of sexy girl in my feed and found myself opening incognito mode in browser. Sometimes I just craved to see porn or hentai.

So this time I blocked all porn sites and registered here. My search of basics of self-improvement became a search for scientific knowledge and divine wisdom. I learn about mindfullness and meditations in clinical practice, I study the Bible and follow the rules of the Church, I go to the gym and try to use my knowledge of anatomy and physiology to control my body.



And I hope that with your help, my dear friends, I will finally achieve freedom from porn and lust.