From severe PIED to sex in just 6 weeks !! If you dont believe me,try it out yourself.This is how .

First of all i wanna say a big "Happy New Year" to everyone arround.This is the best community i have been part of and i really do belive that we need each other to reach the highest peak.
I havent been arround here for a while ,its been a busy year ,but im here now and i want to share with you my experience,especially for those at the beginning of this hard but crucial journey ,just like i was one year ago.
Im sorry that this post is kind of long ,but i really wanted to put some light on all the aspects and share as much info as i could for the new guys.
Although i kinda used that tittle as a small click bait,NoFap works. I knew that tittle will have an impact and i hope it will bring many confused guys who lost hope.This shit fucking works!!! Take this from the most skeptical guy there is on this planet.How do i know this? Cuz i went from extreme PIED to having sex in almost 2 months.Now before you start jumping from your seat i want to warn you that this is my story,my body ,and my journey.Things that you will read here are 100 % true,but may not apply to you ,as we are all so different,physically and mentally.
Before i start i want to put some light on my past.I come from a troubled childhood ,suffered abuse ,bi thoughts ,severe PIED ,low self esteem,loner...you name it.and i was addicted to P for more than 20 years. For those who want to read my background i will leave a link .There are some nice infos there for people in the same situation.

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...ality-and-sissy-cravings.161298/#post-1360557

Ok.back to the miracles. Just kidding,there are no fucking miracles,and if that is what you re looking for im sorry to disappoint you ,but there are no shortcuts on this road.It's work,hard work ,with yourself and your environment ,but trust me brothers,it fucking worth it.
So last year around January i found out about NoFap after finding out my dick is not working anymore.The hard way. I was some friends at a party(i have to say the literally begged me to come and i was anxious the whole time to understand who i was better,i was no party boy ) and after a couple a drinks i saw this girl i had a crush on.We hardly said more than hi to each other ,but i really liked her in secret.Of course my doubts and previous fails kept me away from her .She was also kinda tipsy and told me she also had a thing for me.Lucky me huh? Usually at this point i will look for the nearest exit and perform my best trick ,disappearing.But the alcohol kept me pumped up and before you know it we were in her apartment.This is the moment i realised what i have gotten myself into,but again i was kinda drunk and went with it.W e started making out and do all those crazy stuff but i had no reaction down there ,none what so ever.After long foreplay and even oral stimulation nothing happend.She was kinda cool with it and blame it on the alcohol ,but i knew better.I didnt want to let it go so i tried all these positions and tricks that worked in the past.I grinded on that poor girl till i got scars on my knees ,but wilie was still not cooperating,so we went to sleep.
Silly me even tried it in the morning ,desperately trying to fix the little that i could and not leave her with that impression,but it was even more disappointing,as we were not drunk anymore.
I went home and couldnt belive where i was.I wasnt knew with sexual problems,and always kinda suffered some kind of pied.But till then with the use of doctors,medicines and all sort of other external stimulus i would manage to keep it under control more or less.I mean ,i wasnt what you would call a stalion,but i could have at least some kind of weird intercourse,unlike now .
So ,as i said,i had these issues before ,and even before nofap i manage to realize the devastating effects it had on me ,but without information i would always fail to quit.I even tried rebooting before i knew what rebooting was,but everytime i reached a flat line i would panic and go back to my usual activities.
This is where i want to thank the people behind nofap for creating this platform and helping lost guys like me.
So this being said your best ally is information.The more you know about your enemy the more chances you have to defeat him.
So my first advice to you guys is start reading and watching all the youtube videos on P addiction.If you dont know where to start www.yourbrainonporn.com.You need to know what to expect and how to behave when things go rought. Read,as much as you can.Start with "No more mister nice guy" by Dr Glover.All P addicts have a nice guy inside.Read that book,take notes,memorize it ,make it your bibble ,as it talks about a wide specter of areas where we need to work,and has exercises you can do yourself,and i do encourage you to do them with an open heart.
You need to find a safe person.Someone you can share what you are experiencing and talk to about your emotions and feelings.I know it sounds kinda girly ,but trust me guys,healthy man bonding is crucial.If you don have anyone you can look for someone here.I was lucky enough to find Todor ,my dear friend ,here on nofap.And thanks to him i could achieve all i wanted,because i had someone who i trusted when i needed the most.I encourage you to do the same,as talking to someone close who wont judge you based on your activities will help you improve your self esteem.
Keep it with me guys,i know it sounds like a fairy tale,but the best is yet to come.
Next you need to eliminate all the triggers arround you.Sex has become so common and the society is promoting it so hard that is nearly imposible to open tv or fb and not find something triggering.So i encurage you to stop it with social media and tv and start focusing on yourself.Even the most apparently innocent photo on fb might have a huge domino in your brain in the first reboot period.
I remember the first 2-3 weeks my brain would project imagines and scenes from movies i used to PMO to ,or use anything around me in a sexual way just to make me go back to p an give him that dopamine rush.I was walking on the street and seeing anything in a sexual way.I remember one time i was next to a hot woman on the crosswalk,waiting for the green light.She was really hot and i tried my best not to look at her,but after a few seconds i take a peak and see her drinking something from a bottle.It was a regular soda bottle ,but the way she tilted her head and closed her eyes made my mind gone crazy,and for a second i thought i was gonna faint.I got this blood rush to my head,goose bumps,big hole in my stomach and nausea,and i felt like my feet were gonna give up on me. A woman drinking water was found arrousing by my dopamine addict brain an attacked,he couldnt take it anymore.Stay away from triggers. You brain will constantly try to trick you .You took from him his most precious drug ,and he will do whatever it takes to get it back ,even if that means making you suffer ,psihically or mentally .You will feel sad,depressed, you will remember sad experiences and question the purpose of all this suffering .There are all tricks ,i can tell you this not only from the eyes of a P addict,but also a drug addict.Your brain will try to put you down and make you feel low and less than you are to force you to go back to your old habits.Dont give in.Be strong. This is not a battle your fighting,this is a war.And a victim will never win a war.You are not a victim ,you already won your first battle by simply being here and admitting you have a problem.Keep it up !
As i said ,take notes.Make a journal.Not only that it helps you learn how to express your thoughts and feelings but you can literally see what is going on in your mind .Start writing about what you feel and why you feel like that .It is very important to understand the core of the problem.Your addiction is just a choice.You could have been an alcoholic,a junkie ,a gambler. Your problem is not your addiction to P,that just your brains way to cope with a previous trauma or negative past events.Until you find what is it that is missing and what void is P actually filing, you will never heal properly.
The next best thing is going to the gym.I know a lot of you guys were probably never in a gym before ,but then again ,even the rippest guy on the planet was once the new guy at the gym.You need to get out of the house and use your energy.Not only will this improve your chemicals cocktail in your brain and will clear your mind, but it will also help you see yourself with better eyes.You literally change the way you look ,with your own two hands,and seeing that has a huge impact on you mentally.
So ,these were the tools i use in my first official reboot since i found NoFap.
After almost one months i was starting to see serious improvements.It was easier to focus now and keep myself busy .I started enjoying the small things i forgot to pay attention to ,like listening to music ,watching a movie and all those other stuff a normal guy would do.I was more into my daily activities,the nausea and stuff went away,no more bi cravings ,no anxiety ,no social fear,all the positive signs. And it felt great.It was the first time in my life i would reach the huge 1 month milestone without P, and i was so excited .Everyday i would wake up a better person .Stronger,from day to day,closer to my goal.90 days.
After 6-7 weeks a girl from work who knew i had troubles with the ladies came up to me and told me she matched me up with some cute new girl from our department.She felt bad for me cuz i was a nice guy and wanted to do a good deed.I couldnt believe what she just told me.In the next moment i got this huge panic attack and anxiety worst than ever took control.I was terrified of the ideea ,what would i do ,what if she likes me and invites me over,i cant go thru that again. So my first impulse was to bail,turn my phone off,lock the door and eat the key.But we were working together ,so that wont be a solution,we would eventually meet.And i didnt want to make the girl who did something nice for me once to look stupid.So i grabbed some self esteem and some little confidence i had harvested till then and went to the bar we were supposed to met.
They were 20 minutes late,time enough to smoke around 14 cigarettes,have 2 beers and a shot and found at least 3 plausible excuses to refuse to go to her place ,just in case.But as the time passed the anxiety grew bigger and i decided to leave.As i was walking to the exit i see them right in front of me .I couldnt believe.There were 25 minutes late,i had all the reasons to go.What the fuck took me so long ?? No what?
So i pretended as i was going to the bathroom.I had the creepiest look on my face and all my onboard gauges were spinning like crazy.So i said i will just go for a drink ,be polite,but not too much ,and leave in 30 minutes.
As we were drinking some more friends joined us and a guy started to hit at my date.I was so happy and tought this is my moment,and as i was murdering my cigarette so i can finally leave she finds a seat next to me and starts talking.
So we talked ,she was really nice, quite humble and open for a girl that good looking.I knew i couldnt mess it up with her in anyway ,even if that means never trying.So i decided to be opened to her(well ,kind of) and told her i had some past issues i am still working on and i am not looking for sex.(its actually was easier to say it than to think about it)
For my surprise she was really supportive and didnt judge nor asked inappropriate questions.She respected my intimacy and because she wasnt curious it helped me open.I felt amazing saying those things and for the first time being honest with myself ,the people around me .I wasnt thinking about meaningless sex and really wanted to connect on a different level.After we shared our stories everything came natural.Putting all out there and being vulnerable one to each other helped create a deep bond so fast.I had never experienced something like this before.Are these the superpowers the guys on NoFap are talking about? Could it be more?
So after a few drinks i decided to give her a ride home.She said she doesnt want the night to be over and invites me over ,to talk some more,not for sex.We both laughed but i was really serious about it.(haha)
We talked some more and then we went to bed,just kissed and cuddle .The next morning i got a sign from below the belt.Aparently someone was awake before me,and quite happy to be there.I had experienced before some morning wood,but nothing as woody as this .So woody that my bed buddy felt it,and started giving me the look as she would rub her body agains mine in this bed mating dance.I was terrified ,scared of past fails,i couldnt bare taking another hit to my manhood .But i said what the fuck,and took that chance.For the first time in years i had sexual intercourse without any fears ,doubts ,secret agendas, check list and all that thing.For the first time in ages i connected with another human being .I gave her the most awkward 2 minutes of sex of her life.(haha)I felt more alive than ever.I ran till home .I was so excited that i went home , put my headphones on an blasted the loudest music i could find while performing this awkward dance that would have served Windows '95 Launch.
I could not believe what was happening to me.After years of addiction and depression i was for the first time free.I was on my feet ,improving myself daily and keeping myself on track.In nearly months i got myself from impotence and being alone and scared,to having a gf and making love.It was unbelievable.All just by giving up P.Why didnt i do this earlier.
So with time i gained more confidence,i was open to my gf about my feelings,i was more aware about what was happening with me and my body.Sex was never amazing .It started lame and cold ,disconected from reality ,with flashes and kinks trying to escape .But take it easy .Dont rush it.Thats my only advice .Take your time.You have to connect with another person to rewire your brain, a part without the whole reboot will not be posible.Your brain need to be trained again to search for real people ,not images on a screen.You need to recover your senses,touch ,smell ,all those things you cant feel in front of a laptop.Sex is a whole experience.Its not as binary as P is.
But in time you will gain more and more control on your body and you will perform better everytime.The only advice i have on sex for you right now is not focus on sex,not even if you get there.Focus on the small stuff,kissing,touching,cuddling.Take your time and do what feels right.And for God sake dont try to give her the ride of her life.You will never achieve it.Just enjoy.That was my case at least.
And it worked till my gf and i had a fight and she decided to move out for a while.I was so frustrated and furious.All past emotions and experiences were running thru my head.I started blaming myself for everything and got in this depressing state,and before you know it ,i was back to P,as it was the only think that ever helped me when i was down.
I started my reboot on 25 february ,and since then i had a couple of relapses,and a few binges.But i learned not to judge myself for it,instead to learn something each time i relapse.Why did that happen ,what cause it ,how can i prevent that.All that is crucial data in this fight.Most of you will fail,will relapse.Its ok.You made a mistake .We are all human.The biggest mistake you can make is give up.You give up when you quit,till then you re fighting.
You see,i only started this reboot to stop my PIED.I wasnt ready to give up P.I thought that i would cure my dysfunction and then be more careful while using P.I never gave up little triggers like some P memes on 9gag or some "clothing" pages on fb.But i was lying to myself .
I made it from severe PIED with no self esteem and no future to strong motivated guy with a new girlfriend in 2 months,and then back to pied in just a few relapses .
Make sure to give up everything,but honest to yourself.Until i made the clear decision to give up everything ,i couldnt find peace.After a few more periodically relapses i realized there is only one way to do this.There are no gray areas.You either quit it all once,or you fail trying like i did.
On 11 december 2018 i started what i hope it will be my last reboot.I am almost one month in .I only measure time to keep a study in my journal about the changes that go thru our body in these times.I will never go back to P .It ruined my childhood and transformed me into this lurking creature feasting on lust and fantasies.It took me almost one year to understand how to break this spell.
For those who struggle with cravings and withdrawal symptoms.Next time when you feel the urge to do something or have a thought you want to get rid of ,find 3 items next to you ,name them and take long breaks between.Its the easiest and fastest way to achieve mindfulness. you can do it as many time as you want.Trust me.It works .
Remind yourself why you are doing this .The price might be big ,but the reward is beyond imagination. Set goals,set boundaries, create your own life,your own path.This is your life ,you can control things in your micro universe.Do it,but remember ,be true to yourself ,you are the master of your future. I was where you are man,scared ,affraid ,willing to give it all up and live underground.Im glad i didnt .
I didnt come here to show off or prove how strong i can be.I came here to show you guys is possible if you believe it .Have faith in your powers an the universe will reward you . For those in need of a friend,a good word or an advice,please feel free to message me guys,and i will answer all your questions .In the last year i read a few books and developed a few rules to follow while fighting this ugly monster.Easy rules that will help you move on and become a better human.If someone is interested just say and i will post them . I hope my story didnt bored you guys and sorry for typos as English is not my first language.
For now i wish you all a happy new year .Stay focused brother and remember ,everything happens for you ,not to you . Pace!

 

Hello my friend and thank you for reading my story .Im glad you brought this up ,because the flat line had a crucial foot print on my recovery.As i said in my story i was doing reboots without knowing what a reboot it.I just knew i had to quit P as it had a negative impact on my life and my human interactions,so i tried to do that a few times.But the flat line was what kept me going back to P . You see ,i didnt knew what a flat line was,i havent found nofap yet so i have no information about the changes our bodies go thru .In my eyes i was impotent and my dick was looking like a bigger clit .I was managing to keep my focus away for a few days,just like you ,but after that the fear that my "mini me" will never be hard again would always push me back to P ,"only to check if its still working of course".But it was a vicious circle ,that was keeping me in this unhealthy state of mind. Luckily for me i found this amazing place and all the amazing guys around and started to gather information about this. But no information in the world will replace your will to move forward,only you can do that.I dont know who you are brother ,but i can tell you are an amazing guy ,who deserves a better future .Lets achieve it together my brothers,as together we are strong.Next time you find yourself feeling down ,remember ,you are not alone. Pace !