Hi, 28 year old male here. I've been addicted to this since I was 13 or 14. Long story short: I know how self-destructive this can be. I attempted suicide when I was 17 and came close to a second attempt when I was 24 or 25. Luckily I was shown love at just the right moment and I have no more self-destructive thoughts. I don't want to just live. I want to grow and thrive. Although porn is only one aspect of my angst and depression it's been a major negative influence and I need to stop completely. I've been using it to numb out. Fortunately, I have found psychedelics and I now know my purpose, I know who I am, I know where I'm going, and so much more. I can't recommend them highly enough if you're seeking growth and optimism. I know that to heal we have to take a holistic approach. I've stopped drinking alcohol. I've cut off negative people from my life. I've drastically improved my diet. I've taken up yoga and daily meditation. I've joined a social anxiety support group. I've been working with ayahuasca and psilocybin. I did an iboga flood dose and 5-meo-dmt in December. After the iboga I was able to abstain for roughly 90 days, but then I relapsed. Despite that relapse and a couple of others I saw the power of abstaining from pmo. It's day 2 for me now. I need this community and an accountability partner. I can't handle this on my own. My initial goal is 90 day hard mode. Thanks for reading. Much love and light to each of you.