I don´t get it, I do everything that is suggested: I take cold showers, I run in the morning and lift weights in the afternoon, I have made friends and go out with them. And yet I fap....... every FUCKING TIME I get home, even if I am at home for just 5 minutes to grab something or put the groceries in the fridge. Everybody succeeds after having done what I do but I have been consumed by it. My family want nothing to do with me and I don´t care, I am FUCKING ASEXUAL, I can only get a FUCKING boner whenever I watch or read pornography. NOTHING INTERESTS ME OR MAKES ME HAPPY EXCEPT PORN; EVERYTHING ELSE IS A FREAKING CHORE; INCLUDING ACTIVITIES LIKE READING AND SOCIALIZING: AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF MY MOM THINKS I AM A PERVERTED MONSTER; MY DAD THINKS THAT I AM TAKING DRUGS (I NEVER HAVE) AND BELIEVES NOFAP IS BROSCIENCE AND MY SISTER IS SUICIDAL AND MY FAMILY THINKS I AM PARTIALLY TO BLAME (THE FACT THAT SHE CAN´T GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL IS NOT FAULT). I just want to end this, I tried and I failed, perhaps I if I end it I will stop being pathetic, I lost the battle it´s over. fuck this world, fuck nofap.