Hello! First of all, you are all amazing people. I really love the amount of help, motivation and encouragement going on here. So, thank you . So I've been trying to do the 90 day challenge for about 2 months now and the longest I've reached was 27 days. Ever since I relapsed on that streak, I've been relapsing every 2-4 days. A few days ago I was so determined and motivated and convinced that I would reach my goal on that streak, but I fucked up last night. I relapsed. The thing that boggles my mind is how motivated I would be, and how determined and sure that I would make it, and then when the urge hits, it's like I become a different person. I stop caring about my goal and whether I make it. I start convincing myself that all of this is pointless and that I don't need to do this. I forget about all of this and how bad I really want to stop. I start telling myself how I am a human being and that I was born this way, horny and with the need to masturbate. It's like I start thinking with my penis instead of my brain when I get the urge. Anyone has any idea on what to do when that happens? I know about cold showers, walking outside, meditation and doing something productive, but when I'm in bed at 2 am, none of these are possible really. Thank you for reading and for any help!