Full Reboot after 30 days P Free

Hi all,

I posted a month ago a thread ( https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/working-for-full-reboot-after-10-years-of-pmo.145409 ) In which I explained my backstory and stated that I wanted a full reboot for 90 days.

Sadly, I didn't fullfill the M part, only the P part. Of that much I am proud, though my longest P free streak was 2 and a half months past autumn. However, I have realized that excessive masturbation is also a problem for me, and sexual fantasies and distractions are continuously appearing in my mind.

I think it's high time I completely rewired my brain, and this journey begins today, on day one. I know it will be really difficult, specially now that I am about to start my examination period, but I want to take control of my life go back to a sexually healthy life as soon as possible, no distractions.

As I am single and for the time being I am too busy to find any partner, it will be unvoluntary hard mode, at least for the next three weeks or so.

With the knowledge available here and my own willpower I know I'll be able to make it. I'll try to post here every single day my personal journal, and I hope it helps other people in my situation.

Thank you for reading.

Best wishes for all!

 

Day 1

Today I spent all day home studying for my exams. Of course, the urges are always there, trying to seduce me. But I can cope with it. Even with a few hours home alone and in front of the computer I didn't even consider seriously for a second to browse for some porn. I sincerely think that porn is a past thing for me (however, I must stay vigilant), but masturbation and compulsive sexual thoughts are still there and take too much of my precious time. That is why I'm doing this reboot and that is why I will complete it.

Good day!

 

Day 3

As I have to stay home studying all day, urges are expected and, damn, do they appear. I'm finding it so hard to keep my mind focus on studying... My habit has always been releasing stress and anxiety through PMO, so I know what my body is expecting me to do when I'm stuck under pressure.

But I will not give in. My determination to change myself for the better is stronger than ever. My concept of sexual relations is already starting to change for the better, or, at least, the bright patterns of love and respect are getting stronger. I'll keep on this path for the rest of this journey which, at some times, seems endless. But after reading so many success stories of people that reached 90 days and beyond, why can I achieve the same? I have to convince myself that I can and that I will.

One of my problems is that I cannot stop thinking about my timer and I constantly check it out. I have to eliminate this habit and just keep on going without worrying too much about the damn timer.

Love for all!

 

Day 10

Urges are getting stronger day after day. I had also had 3 wet dreams so far, not a experience I would recommend. This was the day I relapsed last time I tried no PM, so I should feel proud for that. I know that the path to self-control is long and full of dangers, but I also find hopeful signs of recovery since I stopped PMO. I hope I can make it, but right now the truth is that the road ahead seems endless. I must consider every time I'm tempted with relapsing why I started doing this and the benefits I'll get from this experience.

 

Thanks Jake! It's true, I'm trying to stay strong against the urges... I'm tired of getting controlled by them, It's high time I started being the master of my body and not the other way around.

It's interesting how my relationship with sexuality and urges is changing...today, it was the first time I felt I was talking face to face with the urges, without being overwhelmed or needing to scape. I know this process takes time and I'll face many difficulties on the road ahead, but my strength will rise to this challenge.

Thanks very much for the support. I hope everything goes fine for you!

 

Thanks to you for reading and good luck on your journey