Futanari/sissy addiction (possibly triggering)

When I relapse I always go back to futanari, something about women having male genitals really turns me on, I hate it because that spiraled me into sissy porn which really has destroyed my masculinity and confidence in my self, and sissy porn encourages you to destroy your penis and make it useless or to cage it and make it useless and small. It is funny how I am 6 inches erect but porn has convinced me that I am small and inferior, like women want horse dicks or something, it is amazing how much porn has warped my mind and a whole generation of young people.

 

I think I have always liked those things honestly, when I was 12 years old I was in my grandmas vacant house alone and discovered her pile of clothing she left, instantly I became hooked on cross dressing and I had never even watched porn at the time, I wanted to feel sexy like a real woman does, luckily this only really manifests when I am turned on and not something I want any other time. The futanari I was instantly hooked on when I first discovered it all those years ago.