gay/transwoman porn addiction and HOCD please help

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  1. FrankBioph06

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    Hello guys , I'm a 21 years old male

    So i've been hooked first to hentai porn then gay porn then transwoman porn but even while watching gay porn i was camming and on craig's list

    I've got hocd the day when i've read an article that you can't become straight if you were gay and the thought poped in my mind that if i was watching gay porn that means i'm gay and since then i become obssessed about my sexual orientation and starting to having these attraction to guys

    At first, i tried to masturbate to straight porn and force myself to get an erection for like 9 months straight ( i didn't hear of NoFap) but with no results
    Before this i was attracted to girls and been in love with a few but on the other hand i was insecure around boys not masculine boys but because i was affraid of being bullied and mocked off

    now i see boys irl or in the internet and i get very anxious and feel like i'm attracted to him and i become not being able to imagine girls even romantically , i was every night before sleep put on some romantic music and think about a girl i love now i can't


    now this is the two ideas that bothers me :

    *that my attraction to girls were all a lie and i am actually gay and gay porn attenuate my attraction to boys that i didn't feel it
    *that my 9 months of watching straight porn ( and sometimes transwoman porn ) was actually a reboot , and i didn't get better after it


    Please i'm going insane , i remember my first real love when i was 11 (a blonde girl) now my mind is fucked up
     
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  2. Rubbish. Most guys that consider themselves gay had experiences with females first. Do their experiences with females mean they cannot be gay? Self defining is just that - self defining. We gravitate to what is comfortable and fits us and we tend to choose those things.

    Mate, watching porn isn't a reboot. Gay, straight, trans, or otherwise.
     
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  3. IGY

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    Really? "Rubbish. Most guys that consider themselves gay had experiences with females first."

    Based on what research @TheSumOfAllBeers?
     
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  4. Themadfapper

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    Pretty tough to research that, all they can do is survey people, and then if those surveyed catch on to what the questions are about they might lie.

    I can say from my experience in high school that all the guys I know of that went gay were sexually promiscuous with girls at some point.

    Asking for research is kind of bullshit at this point anyway! Most "research" from the 1950s and prior would support whatever popular opinion was in the 1950s, most research today supports the social agenda of today. "Scientific" studies are pretty much garbage and useless at this point and just used to push social agenda and really have little or nothing to do with science.
     
  5. IGY

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    So, there is no foundation for the claim above that, "Most guys that consider themselves gay had experiences with females first." Thank you. That is what I thought.
     
  6. Themadfapper

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    There is also no foundation for the claim that what was said above, "Most guys that consider themselves gay had experiences with females first." isn't true!

    Here is one,"most girls that you will meet at bars are pretentious headcases"

    There is no study to back it up, but in my experience it's true
     
  7. iRebootMyself

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    Look man, i didn't read your thread but i will after i post this comment.
    If you want to be with women even if you feel that there is something wrong with your sexuality, you are fine.
    I suffer from HOCD and my life has been in hell since it started.
    Just do the hard mode and learn about what is HOCD in depth.
     
  8. iRebootMyself

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    Okay, every time when I open this forum i know i will find new HOCD-related threads, i don't feel surprised anymore :D
    I know how you feel, welcome to the club.
    I can't tell you if i noticed some any improvements because im relapsing like a crazy motherfucker these days.
    I recommend you to read about Porn-related HOCD on YourBrainOnPorn.com and read this article called "can you trust your Johnson ", just google it.
    If you want to message me I'll be happy to chat with you.
    Stay strong brother, and welcome to forever "no drama".
     
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  9. iceman40

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    Sounds like you are in a cross road. Do you have to classify yourself as a hetero or homo? Why? Why not be who are you deep inside and not let society dictate your life? First get a strong control over your porn addiction, stay way from it. Then after 3-6 months think whether you want to be with women or men or maybe you enjoy both. It's all good in my book as long as it's aligned with your life and makes you happy. Two short stories:

    one of my employees is a female who is a lesbian for a long time, at least we thought she was a lesbian until she broke up with her girlfriend can start seeing a guy. And everyone in my office is pretty close and basically she says I'm about free love and I enjoy both men and women. We love her as a team member and she's amazing. So what she does on her personal life has no bearing on homework at all.

    there is a Republican name Roy Ashburn. he used a vote for a lot of anti-gay measures. One day I saw on the news that he got busted for driving under the influence while coming from me gay nightclub in Sacramento. He was driving all the way to Bakersfield California. The point I'm trying to make is this guy was lying about what he was really about and deep down inside he was dying for his true self. And that is to be with men. What bothers me about people like him is that they lie to the public and take measures that is against their nature so they can have a nice paycheck. Yet sooner or later stuff is discovered in people's closets. I'm not trying to bash Republicans at all but usually they are to more conservative anti-gay people ever.

    in summary, live your life to the fullest and enjoy every single second. When she gets strong enough mentally you don't have to worry or be affected about what the public or others are saying. Don't cause harm and help other people if you can. That's my motto and I follow it every day.
     
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  10. Galarian Milo

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    Hey bro! Maybe something that would help you is :
    1. Seeing sexual orientation has a spectrum: I don't remember who was (can't think of the name at the moment but you should be able to google it) but a researcher suggested that sexuality is not a black and white thing but rather it presents itself as a continuum, an spectrum, meaning some of us will fancy girls mostly, some boys mostly and some anything in between these 2 choices. So don't feel like you are trapped being gay or str8.

    2. Rather than focusing on your sexual orientation and rig consumed by it I would encourage you to focus on being OK. Develop healthy habits, and a healthy mindset. Stop objectifying women and men (if you do) abstain for porn and reboot. I think everything will be clearer after that. I fancy both girls and boys but I have come to terms with it and now I live a happier life, married to my best friend (who turned out to be a girl ;) )
    Good luck! Pm if you want me to help you in any way or if you would like to talk more about it :)
     
  11. Booster

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    I speak for myself that much of the porn i wanked over for many years is no longer a fantasy now ive given up porn for nearly a year.

    My advice is dont worry, just concentrate on giving up porn then see what you enjoy.

    Porn rewires the brain to get off on the strange and the unusual, If in a years time on no porn you still love guys then hey thats gonna be fine.

    But speaking for myself, I loved loads off stuff that is now not even a desire. transwomen, gay, bdsm You name it, All has disappeared.
     
  12. Themadfapper

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    For someone into rape fantasies, violent sex, torture, hurting women you surely wouldn't give the same advice. Yet you encourage someone to do something that is dangerous and harmful to their health all because society tells you that you should. Society tells you it's safe, good, and healthy the same "enlightened" society that told you porn and masturbation are safe, healthy, and good for you.
     
  13. Booster

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    I wouldnt but the guy was into gay or straight porn, the answer was in context to the question of the thread.
     
  14. iRebootMyself

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    What do you mean by "SS experience" ?
     
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    Why are you repeating here what was confided in private sensitive emails? Seems like a pretty shitty thing to do. Also, your talking like you're the arbitrator of his and all sexuality. Some kind of power thing for you to try and convince people they are gay, or you trying to recruit? I would be pissed off too if some guy was trying to convince me that "I'm gay" and that he used private information I confided in him against me and shared it on a forum.

    This whole "gay orientation" "finding out if your gay" bullshit is all pretty new, and it was brought to you by the same people that told you it was good to masturbate and that porn was healthy, and clearly that hasn't worked out so great for everyone here. Why the hell would you believe them again?

    Maybe I'm wrong and being gay isn't a sick very addictive sexual fetish. However, the majority of gay men that I've seen in the city do live that way. But let's say it's totally natural what is the big deal if someone is celibate? Celibacy has many benefits especially for someone who suffers from sexual addictions [ porn masterbation]. Homosexuality, on the other hand, is extremely dangerous and cut's the average lifespan for men by I believe about 20 years! 20% of American gays have HIV! Receptive anal sex is the most likely way to contract HIV and it's unhealthy and dangerous even if you don't catch HIV. The anus is not suited for receiving a penis over and over again and there are health consequences. With men and women sex seems to be limited, but with gay men, it's often very easily accessible and there is an endless supply of it. Meaning unnatural amounts of sex are common and sexual addiction, obsession, destruction are rampant.

    Knowing this which I'm sure you at least in part do. Why would you encourage someone to partake in the homosexual lifestyle? Why do you insist that this fellow who is likely in agony and currently suffering from addictions and mental problems why do you insist he partake in homosexual acts?
     
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  16. recoome

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    dont watch porn. it will wreck ur life. i recently had a gay encounter n it was horrible. earlier i would jack off to gay porn n thoughts of getting abused. when i acted on it, i felt horrible. just disgusted with myself.
    DO NOT ACT ON IT.
    learn my my mistake. stop watching porn. treat this porn addiction as serious as cancer or some other ailment. replace porn with other acts. maybe solve puzzles or other stuff. but dont even think about porn. replace it with other acts. just change ur habits.
    i regret acting on gay thoughts.
     
  17. kriss93

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    @recoome Ehh. I am remember that you (about 8-10 months ago or so) considered yourself as gay in one of your comment in a post. It's really scary how this porn shit messes with our head...
     
  18. FrankBioph06

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    Fuck what society thinks i won't live twice in this life

    what bothers me that i used to be attracted to females to some degree and didn't ever considered being in love or in a relationship with a man, it's just not who i am
    i remember from a very young age being attracted to girls now i'm in living hell
     
  19. FrankBioph06

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    thanks for your reply but please don't reply more to this thread you only make things worse , how the hell do you know that my attraction to girls was made-up ? are you me ??? just shut the fuck up whenever you reply to one of my threads you give me a hocd spike


    PLEASE DON'T REPLY EVER TO ME AGAIN
     
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  20. IGY

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    Same sex or homosexual.
     
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