I have been MO since I as long as I can remember. Now - in my mid 20s - I usually PMO a couple times a week followed by regret and frustration. I need to quit mainly for religious reasons, as someone trying to follow Islam. But also feel PMO has ruined my potential in terms of career, social life - being in a constant state of sin and regret leading me a lack of confidence and self-esteem . For Muslims the best month of the year in Ramadan, in which the best nights are the last 10 nights of Ramadan. But that didn't stop me from my addiction. Because of this I felt such despair, "If cannot stop in this blessed month, then I will never be able to stop." Although, not losing hope in God's mercy and in myself; I am signing up here to trying to break this cyclic-shameful-addiction. To become a better version of myself.