Getting honest, no softcore! No P subs!

Just put this over in my journal and then started a "P and P subs" counter.

I guess I really didn't think what I was doing. The night before my birthday last week I was lying in bed waiting to fall asleep and surfing TV channels, and paused on one of those insipid late night softcore movies. I knew, or I felt I was doing something not good for my recovery but then rationalized that, well, my problem is with hardcore and not this dumb stuff. So I wound up lingering to check out the scenes, the bodies and the sex, of course. But softcore, I convinced myself. No genitalia being exposed. Even though I clicked away to other channels I continued to return just "to see" what was happening. I lay there in my bed and watched naked people having sex on my television, and that is totally unacceptable for my recovery. I know this now.

In fact, I've known it all week but have just been pushing it aside in my mind, although I have been avoiding the channels playing the softcore every night since. But now I feel the need to start a counter to try and get some accountability going. Last night was kind of close as I surfed the cable channel grid, thought about it but I didn't go there.

As so many have said here and so very true, this is a serious addiction and must be taken seriously. I don't want to tease my addiction as that will only delay any chance at recovery. I want to get as well as I can get, and as soon as I can get. Willing to go to any lengths, as is said in another recovery context, but can certainly apply here. Therefore, no softcore, no P subs, no excuses. So then, my question and the reason I'm posting here... Putting aside the clear potential for relapse, do you think that just viewing P or P subs without M can cause serious delays in PMO recovery? Could it continue to create unwanted issues with the dopamine and other brain mechanisms?