Getting Started.

Hi everyone,

I'm a 28 y/o male, turning 29 in about a week, and I still fap to porn. It's time to stop.

Both my parents watched porn regularly (and never had sex with each other after I was born), so it was very natural for me to learn to use it as I was going through puberty. I never stopped. I've had girlfriends, and I was watching porn while dating them. That made me feel just awful. I've stopped dating altogether for the last 2 years.

I've lost very close friends because my mind was altered and demented from porn. My penis is damaged: Gray on the bottom and twisted from the abuse. I'm so angry about it. It will take much time to heal back to normal.

I've done a ton of research, and I've wished to succeed at this many more times than I can count.

I hope to make it 100 days this time. (The best I've done this year is 38 days without porn, 58 days without PMO.)

I've been trying to kick this for many years, but I've never joined a forum/community where I can share my thoughts / frustrations / whatever else. I'm done waiting- I'm starting right now.

Thanks for the support. Hopefully together we can pull away from this evil.