Girls Sense Relapses

Hi, warriors. It's my 1st thread on this forum, just wanted to put some thoughts that's on my mind. I was on nofap journey for about a year, in which I found that I have an addiction, had one 3weeks streak & few 2weeks streaks and that's about it, I'm falling back to it again and again and it feels hopeless sometimes. I made a little bit of progress in that year as I PMO less than in all the years before, but still sometimes I feel like I don't have a grip on myself.
I think I'm in love with one girl that I knew for 2 years, I'm not sure if she loves me the way I do but our relationship is complicated, we were not communicating for a few months and we finally started again, we were talking on the phone for 6hours straight on first call, then later for couple of hours at evening that week, I was starting to feel something again. But then she ignored my calls and messages for no specific reason(push-pull strategy or some like that), I was feeling sad as fuck for real as there was no reason for her to ignore me as everything seemed fine. I tried to call her again couple days after and she didn't answer again. I was feeling like crap tbh. Really, really sad. I got drunk one evening, that didn't help much so out of that sadness I relapsed on other evening(was sober then) was on 5th day counter. AAAaand 30mins later she was calling me... How deliberate! Really awkward conversation, she didn't tell me why she was ignoring me and didn't wanted to take any responsibility for that, anyways, she said that she is in regret that she even called me even tho I didn't tell her much as I was expecting some kind of explanation why she did what she did, and tbh I was feeling pretty low at the moment, my mind was working pretty slow and I'm pretty sure that is because of the relapse I had 30min ago. I was trying to dialog with her but damn I was pretty bad at that, it's like I forgot how my brain works and my IQ dropped a few points. She told me that she don't wanna talk to me, it's crazy, I'm pretty sure I would have handled that phone call a lot better if I didn't relapsed. It was crazy as she was sensing something is wrong with me and didn't wanted no business with that.
So, guys, girls senses your relapses, watch out!
*As I put everything together I just realised that the girl I fell for is pretty douchebag and emotionally unavailable, not taking responsibility for her actions/expecting for me to be available everytime she needs me but when I need her she don't care much and let herself slide without any responsibility by ignoring me. Maybe I should cut girl like that out of my life as this kind of relationship will not help my PMO addiction and just create more problems? What you guys think? Thanks <3