Hi all. 48 yo gay guy in Boston. Professional nerd. Looking to make some changes. Since I've been involved in some capacity with the internet since the world wide web became a thing 20+ years ago I've been aware of the ways guys (mostly) were finding ways to distribute porn. Most of it was women so I wasn't particularly interested. But as the tech progressed, the porn did too. And soon I found myself with plenty of gay content. Given that I was in a big city with messages constantly warning me about HIV transmission everywhere I went, porn seemed like a safe outlet for sexual expression. But I think over the years it's taken it's toll on me in different ways. I've been sexually active with real people at various times and had no problem. But in the last several years I've started to suspect that something was up. I think the content has gotten to the point (with vids and cams) that I was more stimulated by my endless choices there than guys in real life. These days I've been working to make meaningful connections with guys in real life, but found problems in the sexual department. Definitely suffering from porn-induced impotence. And from the death grip. And then I realized I was replaying porn scenes in my head just so I could get off while I was with a real person. People I found really sexually attractive. Last weekend I somehow lost an entire day surfing porn cams, jo over and over even after I had nothing left. It was a scary thing and a real low for me. From reading the info on this site I recognized so much, that I thought I have to give this a shot. I also know there are probably some other factors that need attention as well; I'm overweight and thus have sleep apnea. So I'm starting similar efforts in those areas as well. I'm hoping to use this site to stay motivated to do a 90 day hard mode reboot. I'm not dating anyone so I'm going to give it a shot. 1 week. 1 month. Then see how it goes to 90days. It's only been a couple days and already I can tell my brain is freaking out a bit. I'm suddenly very aware of my desire to go for porn every time I get bored. My thoughts at work today were a bit over the top. But I guess this means I'm in the right place. I'm also looking for a accountability partner, I think. I'll look around in that forum and see what's going on. Guess that's enough for now. Thanks.