I'm desperate. PMO has been consuming my life. I have a lot of alone time that sets me up for failure. I'm married and my wife became aware of my problem two years ago. It's created a barrier between us and it kills me to see the hurt I've caused her. I'm dealing with ED that has gotten consistently worse. I'm so overwhelmed with guilt and shame and exhausted by the energy it takes to conceal my actions. I want to be done with this once and for all. I can't risk revealing this to anyone in person so the anonymity of this site is very helpful. Your stories of success encourage me.