Giving up, my thoughts in the low

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by HereAndThere, Aug 29, 2018.

  1. HereAndThere

    HereAndThere Fapstronaut

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    I gave up NoFap for a week or so. All the usual side effects came back: loss of motivation, lower energy, asocial mindset and so on. But alot of time i also feel this kind of joy i cant imagine ever experiencing during a streak. Freedom to enjoy, to be me, to not fight 23h a day against my drives like while rebooting. And i cant say that it would be better after rebooting. As far as i understand fighting never actually stops. Whats the point of being more productive if i am also going to be miserable for the rest of my life. And relationships with women cant be the goal either, they never made me happy. There was always some stupid fucking game i was forced to play while in relationship. Sure, its a compromise, life is a struggle either way, but that doesnt say which way is the right one.

    Someone said discipline is freedom. Nofap gives you freedom on one level, fap gives me freedom on another level, i dont have to struggle with urges most of the time nor do all the stupid shit men do to get attention from women. Who can say which freedom is bigger or better? My mental space is free to flow anywhere.

    These are just my thoughts at this moment. Its not an objective evaluation of what is best choice.
     
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  2. Right, you will figure it out just at the right time, man
     
  3. P-Free

    P-Free Fapstronaut

    Have you considered changing the parameters of your reboot? Instead of going hard mode (no pmo), maybe go lite mode (no p, but you can mo)? I find that it is a much less stressful approach AND still has the benefit of defeating the porn addiction. Just my thoughts. You'll find the right path for yourself. :)
     
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  4. HereAndThere

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    I thought about it, but i never gave it a serious shot. Its like an intermediary step. I had fantasies before when it was harder to get porn, i think i would return to that. I will try that at some point.
     
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  5. P-Free

    P-Free Fapstronaut

    Cool. I'd give it a shot rather than giving up entirely, if I were you. Just my two cents. :) I know I feel freaking amazing since I made the change about a week ago. If you decided to do it, stay in touch if you like. Maybe we could help each other. I think our imaginary fantasies are natural. It's when we replay porn vids in our heads that there's a problem. Best of luck!
     
  6. lantti

    lantti Fapstronaut

    I actually respect that. Do as your free mind tells you.

    But do hear me: PMO has never freed anyone. The temporary freedom loss you get from the withdrawal symptoms is far less than what the PMO will take from you during your lifetime.
     
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  7. talontron

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    just continue on. The first two weeks suck with lots of withdrawal symptoms and everything. It gets much better the longer you go on. Do a activity where you don't think and are in the moment in these periods. It helps. Or watch a movie or something.
     

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