I have had a shaky week since rejoining on 1 October and fully relapsed yesterday evening, a strategic attack by the enemy I suspect as I had just returned from a church meeting to which I had a significant contribution. Just after a brief but intense PMO session, the Lord seemed to meet with me and I sensed his love and full commitment to me. So often feel so ragged in the aftermath but he was showing me something special and this applies to each of us. Even though we struggle and, yes, he doesn't like sin, he knows the heart of the helpless who are crying out for help. This is certainly me and maybe you. I am thinking of starting a journal to share thoughts and progress. I notice one or two have done gbis on this forum even though there is a different sections for journals. What are your thoughts journals and on God's response to your relapses?