Hello dear people, first of all I want to say sorry for all grammar mistakes. I'm from Germany. I posted a thread a few months ago. My plan was to abstain from porn but I struggled and continued to watch porn. I would not say that I'm addicted to porn. I don't watch porn a long time (just 5-30 min). I don't watch porn everyday. Sometimes I don't watch porn for a few days. The urge to watch porn is just very strong- so strong I can hardly resist. Yesterday I went to the gym when I felt that urge but today I yielded to the temptation. I'm also not addicted to masturbation. I don't masturbate without porn. That shows how sick my brain has become. You know that dirty feeling you got after watching porn? This is what I deal with every time. I want to become clean. I pray to God for forgiveness every time. I'm not only disappointing myself but also him. I'm a woman which makes it very difficult for me to talk about this porn thing especially in church. If someone has experienced the same or know what I'm dealing with feel free to comment or contact me. Have a good pornfree day!