Day 4: Today was a rough day. There were multiple times today where I felt alone, felt hopeless, and depressed. There was actually one point where I just broke down crying. There’s just this underlying frustration, with myself, that leads to impatience. At one point today I was even convinced God wasn’t with me. I’ve been struggling with my mental health, and today was the first time in a while it was pretty bad. I eventually got through that little rough patch, and learned from it. My emotions overwhelmed me. While I’ve constantly said to myself to shrug off emotions, and not let them bother me, it’s much harder to do when they’re overwhelming you. However right now I’m fine, a little sad, but I’ve prayed to the Lord for strength and read scripture a lot today. I truly believe that’s what’s helped me get through this day. I did my normal morning routine, took a cold shower, meditated, and spent time with the Lord. I got myself to go to the gym later in the day. I got tempted but I instantly took a cold shower. Today was a rough day, but I’m going to continue to grow in my faith and put all my hope in the Lord.