Going Insane! Praying for a wet dream!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Freeman..., Nov 30, 2015.

  1. Freeman...

    Freeman... Fapstronaut

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    So I am 23 days and I nearly broke my laptop this morning trying to find out how to get a fucking counter. (That is not easy-no matter how many people say it is.) I have also subscribed now and am an official member.
    I am not really a porn addict (yet anyway). But I am an 'addict' in the drugs and drink sense of the term so anythings possible. I am also in a painfully sexless relationship due to circumstances that are quiet tough on my partner (that I hope and pray are only temporary). And rather than constantly annoying and trying to remind her about sex I have come to NoFap and it is has helped in that sense, given that I don't really bring it up much anymore and constantly annoy her. She knows already. I know she does. She worries about it too. Shes just in a dark place at the moment and needs me to leave her alone and look after myself.

    But FUCK! Did I ever want to M this morning! I exercised yesterday with a long run and felt great after it but it was as if a bomb went off inside me or something because I have this new sexual energy now that is frightening. I am thinking all sorts of things like "Nofap is too extreme"; 'M-ing is a bodily function'; "I never really watched porn so I don't need it", "if I MO it will make things easier and I won't be under as much pressure";"People who don't MO turn into weird gimpy-sex-abuse freaks!"

    But I haven't done anything yet today. By the skin of my teeth. FUCK! I am going to work out now and try to get something positive going but I am starting to forget why I am doing this, yet something in me really doesn't want to give in. I might be feeling a little better this past 23 days, its very possible, but I have a lot going on that might be shadowing it. So things could get worse if I stop. And giving my partner some space when she needs it is something I could be very grateful for if it is because of Nofap. Help. I am obsessing about a wet dream just to get some relief and I have fucked more women in my head this past while than when I used to M everyday and it all felt like watching porn or M-ing for the first time in my life. I need relief.

    Any and all suggestions are most welcome!

    Thanks guys!
     

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