NoFap

  1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

Going Strong but still a trainwreck

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Westpalm88, Oct 15, 2020.

  1. Oct 15, 2020 #1
    Westpalm88

    Westpalm88 New Fapstronaut

    2
    1
    3
    Alright so I'm 32 and I've finally stopped PMO. It's been nearly three weeks and now I want the real sugar walls like I used to not the pixels. I had a very heavy addiction which lead to the darkest, wicked and vile things porn can offer. My anxiety is up and down day to day. I can't believe this but I'm suddenly worried about my endowment and my height even though I've had three solid chances where I had a women ready to smash on the spot literally. I don't know anyone and the loneliness is making me very bitter and silently mad. I can feel others around me still feeling somewhat intimated or just ignore me. I can't bear that, that's not me. I'm down for a conversation with anyone. I don't have any desire for pmo anymore simply because I want the real thing just like all the others guys I see, it kills me inside but I'm keeping my chin up. I'm pushing through but I just don't want to do something bad legally. I need an outlet. I'm not confident enough to hit the gym even though I sold a lot of gear back in the day.

    What are some things you guys do vent out your anxiety and anger without fear of being judged in public? Being humble and grateful isn't working for me.
     
    Westpalm88, Oct 15, 2020
    Westpalm88, Oct 15, 2020
    #1
    Deleted Account likes this.
  2. Oct 15, 2020 #2
    Deleted Account

    Deleted Account Guest

    I have been struggling with anxiety issues for the past 4 years so I know what it feels like to have such stupid thoughts about social interactions. How everything we do ends up making us look bad. Though all of this has got to do with self worth and other stuff that can be only tended by a trained therapist, one thing that I can suggest to you is to try not to give these feelings the value they are demanding from you. Separate yourself from such toxic social circles and progress in the fields of your interest and you WILL find people who will value you for who you really are and attend your insecurities with care. Try to ask yourself that what would you be thinking if you weren't anxious, angry or afraid right now? This, for me, has helped in acknowledging the deeper insecurities and dealing with them directly. Also, it's very important for you to constantly move and not stay in that mental state. If you can't hit the gym then workout at your place. To be honest, if you have been following the self improvement thing for a while, you know your way out. I just hope you put your mental tools at use. All the best!
     
    Deleted Account, Oct 15, 2020
    Deleted Account, Oct 15, 2020
    #2
    Wandering777 likes this.
  3. Oct 22, 2020 #3
    Westpalm88

    Westpalm88 New Fapstronaut

    2
    1
    3
    another week has gone by and I'm at the 30 day mark, nothing amazing. I'm having a very hard time accepting myself. I did pmo for so many years because I always felt less than every other dude. And now I'm feeling it more than ever. I will never relapse because I only want the real thing. I'm hurting very very bad. I've been living in my car for 6 months now while doing nofap.
     
    Westpalm88, Oct 22, 2020
    Westpalm88, Oct 22, 2020
    #3
  4. Oct 22, 2020 #4
    CrimsnBlade

    CrimsnBlade Fapstronaut

    486
    1,825
    123
    If you can afford it, try to get therapy or counseling, or go to an SAA meeting, I'm sure there's one in your area. Finding community with others who have gone through similar things is so helpful. Heck just go to celebrate recovery in your area and start talking to people. Those are some of the nicest people I've ever met.

    If you can't afford counseling, see if there's a local church that offers it for free, I know some of them do that. Maybe that will help you out.
     
    CrimsnBlade, Oct 22, 2020
    CrimsnBlade, Oct 22, 2020
    #4

Share This Page