Ok so I have been thinking about this for a while now. I don’t know who here are comic book fans but I am going to use an example out of one of them. There is a scene where Batman tells someone that deep down Clark Kent (Superman) is really a good guy and that deep down he (batman) really isn't. This has been stuck in my mind. What if deep down I really am not a good guy. I want to be and I want to serve God but sometimes deep down it feels like I don't. I want to go crazy and enjoy the sins of this world. I then think of the passage that says... “For the eyes of יהוה diligently search throughout all the earth, to show Himself to be strong on behalf of those whose heart is perfect to Him. Diḇre haYamim Bĕt (2 Chronicles) 16:9 TS2009 God knows what I truly am but I don't even know. How do I know what the true desires of my heart is. It feels as if my own heart is deceiving me. Am I really deep down a good guy or a bad guy?