Hello everyone! My name is Beefcake. I’ve been a long time lurker and decide today to become an official member. I am a 19 year old virgin male in college. I’ve got a lot to say but I’ll try to keep it porn related. I have been touching myself for as long as I could remember, to the point my dick would curve worse than a banana. I discovered porn at around 11 .my first real experience was when I stumbled upon it on tv( I think it was hbo). It was really soft core. I couldn’t jerk it at time because my the head couldn’t peel back far enough, but I did touch myself. I would do this every other week for a few years. When I was 15 I discovered x videos but I still couldn’t peel it back all the way. But when I was 16 and a half I managed to jerk it for the first time , middle of summer. I felt amazing. But we all know how this story goes. At first I left it to once a week, a reward to myself on mondays. Then I added Friday and eventually it led to whenever. Now for the most part I was able to control it, keep it of for a few days because of homework. Eventually I graduated high school and went on to college. My first year was shit. I would fap four times a week for At least an hour and a half. Brain fog, lack of concentration, social anxiety ,couldn’t like people in the eye , etc. I failed 6 classes out of 8 that year.i was completely depressed ( not the first time in my life) and didn’t know what was wrong with me. The following summer(2017) i was doing the usual and busted, but this time I really wasn’t satisfied so went at it again but could cum. I gave up and went to bed. The following day be penis was unimaginably swollen. At that point I started wondering if I had a problem. I did some research and eventually came across Nofap. A year later tho and I still have yet to make a solid 60 days. I made this account today because I feel like it is a step in the right direction.