Fiancé has had a really rough week. I think the emotions of these past couple of weeks have finally caught up with her. She hasn’t been sleeping. She hasn’t been going to work. We talked on Wednesday, and it almost feels like she’s grieving the loss of our relationship… or at least what our relationship was. Or, what she thought it was. Crying, she said to me, “You’re my whole world.” I responded, “And you’re mine.” With tears in her eyes, she replied, “I thought I was.” I don’t know what I can say or what I can do to try and ease the hurt she is feeling… I almost feel as though there really isn’t anything I CAN do, since I am the reason she is in pain. I am also starting to realize that despite how well the first couple of weeks had gone, not all of them will be so smooth. I hurt my fiancé terribly. I betrayed her trust, and while I can vow never to do it again, it will never erase the fact that I did. It has left a permanent stain on our relationship… and I think that is part of why she is depressed. All of those good memories from our past are now tainted. Nothing I can do or say will change that. I guess all I can do is continue to make the right decisions, and focus on making new memories.