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Growing up, were you repulsed/disgusted by sex/semen/mating?

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by ultrafabber, Nov 8, 2018.

Were you repulsed/disgusted by sex/semen/mating?

  1. Yes

    5 vote(s)
    31.3%
  2. No/Very rarely.

    11 vote(s)
    68.8%
  1. ultrafabber

    ultrafabber Fapstronaut

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    I'm asking cause i see that in my case this is something i've been dragging since childhood and i think i escape into sex fantasy/porn to avoid the real deal.

    Even if i have/had sex, I'm still grossed out but not by the woman but of my own semen and sex drive. I seem to be having issues integrating my own sexuality.

    There is also a split in me between sex and romance, as if they are mutually exclusive. Basically i just turn off any feelings if I have sex and my sex drive gets turned off if i have any feelings. Basically when i'm horny it's like i am a completely separate person.

    I think i initially perceived sex as something animalic that people just don't do (cause they're not animals). I think I actually hated sexuality and seeing people be interested in eachother.
     
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  2. I think having the two separate is a common problem with us. Like two different people.
     
  3. ultrafabber

    ultrafabber Fapstronaut

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    Yes, i think so too but i'd like to hear more people sharing their experience. In my case it almost feels like possession, even if i know such thing does not exist. This episode from Dexter's Lab shows what it feels like: transforming to, going on rampage, then reverting back to self.

     
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  4. Ra's Al Ghul

    Ra's Al Ghul Fapstronaut

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    No, I never was disgusted. I was messed up over the fact that I grew up in roman catholicism and those beliefs screwed me up in my youth for many years. Roman catholic teaching made me view God as a sadist who made his creatures suffer by imposing on them rules like Priests not being allowed to marry.
     
  5. ultrafabber

    ultrafabber Fapstronaut

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    Catholics are quite weird with the priest rule, there is literally nothing in the Bible that asks them to do such a thing.

    But how did that make you perceive sex?
     
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  6. Rehab101

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    I was grossed out by body hair, especially for the bushes down there. I believe that was due to Japanese cartoon being body hairless and being Chinese since most ppl around me don't have much body hair....
     
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  7. Pastor Preston

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    I used to be repulsed by sex, because it was a taboo topic for me growing up. I now desire a relationship and am having a hard time with getting to know women because of my previous hang-ups.
     
  8. ClaritySeeker

    ClaritySeeker Fapstronaut

    I was first repulsed by hardcore porn, it was just too extreme for me as a 13 year old boy (now 35). But my mind became use to it and began to crave it. Sex and romance are different to me as well, but I'm able to have both in the same person, they are not mutually exclusive. But I can have romance with one person and feel lustful towards another at the same time without romance. But I think most guys are like that, you love someone, but you still find other women attractive and may have lustful thoughts towards them. Doesn't necessarily mean you act on the thoughts though.
     
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