Update: I read another thread in this forum where one user said vents should be saved for journals if you want commiseration rather than advice. I agree. Will follow through next time. Apologies. The thought of writing this was making me sad but now I feel better. Don't hold this stuff in. Denying there's something wrong won't make it go away anyway. So. I'm unhappy with my social life. I'm a homebody so forcing myself to go out can be a bit of a challenge. More importantly, they're aren't people in my life that I feel compelled to spend time with. The two people I thought I would have a lasting friendship with in college moved away and now I just keep in touch with through Facebook. Well I did --it wasn't my intention, but I spend most of my time on NoFap and I've begrudgingly accepted that I don't need it as much as I thought I did. Hopefully I will visit one of those friends over spring break, I haven't seen her since she got pregnant and had her baby I didn't have a large friend group in high school -- that doesn't mean I can't make friends/or wasn't liked just that I didn't hang outside of school with a big group. I'm very much a one-on-one person anyway -- because that's the way life goes, the friendships slowly died over time. So that meant college became my new (and only) source for new friendships. But college is different. You get to know someone over a semester (or in my case, a quarter. Even shorter!) but then you may never see them again. In college you have to make the effort to hang out once class is over otherwise you only get Facebook. And clearly, that is not enough. I'm graduating next quarter. This is not the time to sink my claws into my remaining "friendships" when I'm moving on anyway. I'm moving back home. In all likelihood I'll get a job (no -- I will get a job. I don't have a choice lol) and make new friends and get close to them and the cycle will repeat. I guess I'm just...I don't know. I lost the point of this. NoFap. Some of you are my friends, no quotes. But we both know this is temporary. I'll reach a point where you don't matter anymore. Think of you fondly but move on with my life. But right now I really appreciate you and think it would be cool to meet IRL just once, but that's a big risk with little payoff. Internet friendships don't make it. You can meet someone to date and maybe marry, but you don't get lasting friendships from it. So what's the point? Hm. I don't know where I was supposed to go with this. I guess I'm just fed up. I was sad but it all seems useless now. Your best friend (like that one person you've know since childhood and just know they're in your life forver. I have one of those. Thank God. But again, life) and your spouse. That's all you get. Sometimes your spouse and best friend are the same person and then you're really f*** if you get divorced. I don't know guys. This is the part where I say something uplifting and praise Jesus (worthy of praise) but I don't have anything left. I'm tired. There's only one relationship that will stand the test of time but we don't really get to experience it fully until we die. That's a long wait for most of us. So yeah. Thanks for listening. I guess. Don't really need advice.