Guys I need your Support.!

I have addicted to porn and masturbation addiction since 2009, (almost 12 Years).From last 6 years I am just trying to get out of this habit. But I couldn't do it more than 4/5 days.
My life was very beautiful. I was strong and healthy boy in my teen age( today I am 25), But from last few years I have addicted at such a level. That I am loosing my everything. I have lost my self confidence, my joy happiness of life, I have lost my precious time, days and years of my life. I had goal which I just left behind. Masturbation had made me very weak. It had destroyed my focus, my concentration is very weak. Which I lack in my Study. It had destroyed my purity of thoughts, which is taking me down in my spiritual life. My eyes are not strong I cant sit at screen for 2 hours they start to pain.( I just recovered from1 year of eye infection where my eyes pain and itch every single day, today also after masturbation I feel lack power in my body). There are more things masturbation had destroyed in my life.
Today I am jobless I have set a goal for my career which I couldn't accomplish. Due to this habit. whenever I used to get to study those bad thoughts come and completely ruined my whole day and also I do forget what I studied. This loop was happening for last 6 years. I couldn't study a single book from those years.(Due to this things I was in depression last year depression, I had also failed 4 attempts of suicide in last 2 years. I do read posts on internet mostly here, but it works for only few days.) But I have a faith I could achieve my goal If I get out of this habit completely. Within 1 year I could start my business or find a job.
But I still hope I could get to my goal. I still believe I could get my everything back by following 90 days (for first attempt) of no fap, then I will completely quite it. I am sure this will recover me. ( Although I have seen some good results when I wont fap 5 days, that I experience. So if 5 days can do magic then what about 90 days I just cant imagine. So I am praying to god for strength and power. He will definitely give strength and power to me and many trying to get out of this habit loop.!
Sorry for any mistakes in my English.
Guys I need your Support.! Your few words of motivation can help me to win this battlefield. I am starting for my battle.
Thank You.!

 

Yes you are right. Really appreciate your opinion. I will definitely try not stay in this timed reboots, rather live every moment of life as I choose,Love.

 

Yes this is the story of many around us, many are unaware of this situation they keep on doing this habit and get stuck in this habit loop or get worse.
Its good to see that many of us are trying to get out of this. I pray god to give everybody Power for fighting in this battlefield.
And yes its very hard thing (for me) that you have almost completed 25 days. I will also give my full efforts every single moment.
Thank You..

 

Your words really hit me hard. I must see myself how I am in the future. (A bright future). But for that I must stay focused and keep going on! I will be happy more happy and I believe your words will come true.!