had a stressful day , did bad in an exam , edged didn't masturbate

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by iWannaBeOK, Jan 11, 2018.

  1. iWannaBeOK

    iWannaBeOK Fapstronaut

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    like the title said , i found myself browsing porn , i wasn't even horny or hard or anything , i just kept browsing pictures , should i reset my counter , should i masturbate and be done with it , or what exactly should i do , i googled it , too many contradictory opinions , i feel lost
     
  2. tiredofbeingtired

    tiredofbeingtired Fapstronaut

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    Masturbating would not have any positive benefit, it would just make it take longer for you to recover. You're here now. Don't be a slave to the past. Just move forward. If you caught yourself accidentally scratching a scab, taking a knife and picking at it wouldn't help it heal.
     
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  3. Sôgmô Gray Lock

    Sôgmô Gray Lock Fapstronaut

    Nice analogy!
     
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  4. iWannaBeOK

    iWannaBeOK Fapstronaut

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    I didn't, I'm just tired of fighting with myself, I have the most patient girlfriend ever, I wanna be better for her more than I do for me, it's just that giving up drugs was way much easier than giving up PMO
     
  5. sakeen

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    Hey buddy, don't be hard on yourself. I would count this as a relapse in my books as you've 'dry-run' down the same brain pathways (stress --> porn --> orgasm-->relieve stress). It's better for you to reset and begin with a fresh, clean slate (but please don't use this as excuse to MO). That way when you look back from your long-ass pmo-free streak you can say with confidence that you started right :)
     
  6. tiredofbeingtired

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    I know that feeling of internal conflict all too well. Like these two sides are pulling you apart. I hated it. But just know that it's at it's worst where you are right now. The more distance you put between yourself and this the more at peace you will feel. You have it in you to choose happiness.
     
  7. iWannaBeOK

    iWannaBeOK Fapstronaut

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    i won't use it as an excuse , coz one of m ew year's resolutions was no PMO , i dropped the P , but not the MO, will hold to them as much s i can
     
  8. iWannaBeOK

    iWannaBeOK Fapstronaut

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    iWannaBeOK Fapstronaut

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    with me it's a 100 times worse , i'm only 30 days clean from drugs ,i cant mastrubate nor sleep with my so , going through bs exams, it's hell but i'm doing my best, also can't wait to see if m ed s cured or at least better
     
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