Had my 1st O in 416 days, flatline after waking up 2018[trigger alert]

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  1. cartmandaz221

    cartmandaz221 Fapstronaut

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    14 months in, had lost my libido in November 2018 after a porn session, been in a hard mode for 416 days, I am still not fully recovered, still don't have libido, hardly any morning erection, however I could easily erect from kissing and touching my wife since 6 months in this journey. Before that, it was just a piece of meat hanging down there.

    So tonight, we were in bed doing some "rewiring", suddenly I had a solid hard erection and decided to give it a go, I was also eager to find out if my nuts are still producing semen and what happen if I ejaculate because I also had 0 wet dreams in these 416 days.

    It turns out everything is just fine. I had serious PE tho, due to lack of activities in the past 14 months so the little soldier was super excited, but both I & my wife are very happy with my near 90 seconds performance. The O was amazing and was a huge load which made us changing our sheets and duvet.

    As I am writing this, it makes me think, what is a real libido? since puberty, I was horny as a rabbit, use every good looking women walking on street as sex objects. Sometime in office, I turn around seeing my female colleague wearing a sexy legging & short skirt, I can feel my brain instantly took a shot of some drug, I was enjoying thoses moment and I desperately looking for a release, so I turn myself to hub sites and became addicted to it.

    But now, my libido and erection only happens while kissing and touching and love making with my wife. Not anywhere else, not from streets, not from skirt wearing office ladies, not from lingerie shops and of coz, not from those Hub websites. Does it mean I am cured?

    Right now I am mentally prepared for the chaser effect and potential deeper flatline (PAWS) tmrw but I have a faith in myself, whatever comes, I will never look at hub websites ever in my life.

    Keep going guys, nofap works and stop looking for super powers because it might not be your healthy libido in the first place.
    Merry Xmas
     
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  2. Fenix Rising

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    Great to hear everything is working down there again. How long were you addicted and how serious it was (frequency and duration of PMOing etc)? I'm asking because I'm nearing 1 year of hardmode myself. I had total PIED when entering a reboot. I get quite solid morning woods again, but still don't get boners around women. Maybe I fried my brain with 25 years of PMO :(
     
  3. CodeTalker

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    That’s sounds great.
     
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  4. cartmandaz221

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    I was not a frequent user to my believe because I met my Mrs at the age of 17, we moved in together while I was 18, then we married each other at the age of 22 and now I am 33.
    I only did it occasionally here or there.
    This PIED full blown out was because my wife was pregnant of our 3rd baby in mid 2017, then travelled abroad with the newborn for 1 year on her parental leave after delivery because we didn't have enough local help to look after 3 kids. So I became a regular user of hub sites for approx. 18 months, one release every 2-3 days, nothing hardcore or hentai stuff, but I had a serious legging & foot fetish. Duration wise was about 20-30 mins per session? slowlyI found my erection quality decreased after reunion with the Mrs late 2018, so I went to test it with hub site and after that session, I woke up without my super power.

    I still don't get MWs quite often, but I slowly get more attracted to good looking women, I'm attracted to their looking, the way they speak, but not in a sexual way which made me want to bang every one of them.
    Think again, are we really supposed to have a boner while walking next to a stranger sexy woman?
     
  5. clapas

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    Are your PAWS as bad as when you started the nofap journey?
     
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  6. light&light

    light&light Fapstronaut

    Hi Bro, congratulations on your success. But bro you haven't tell us how you actually did it? Like what is the process? Is is meditation, exercise, self-talk? If yes what was the schedule? Have you created any new habit to do that?
    Thank you in advance.
     
  7. helloo1221

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    Hello congratulations for your success,i want to know why you had flatline after 14 months?? Most say that you will get rebooted after 6-7 months
     
  8. cartmandaz221

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    I had blurry vision, headache, plus insomnia early this year, waking up as early as 3am and couldn't fall asleep, right now I still have anhedonia and nothing else.
    As of today, I feel no super power or feeling deeper in flatline so I guess my release last night does not have much effect on me.
     
  9. cartmandaz221

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    Hi man, I haven't actually done anything except keeping my hands off my d and keep my eyes off those hub sites.
    I have more time in the evenings and more energy from time to time, this year I started to managing some family construction projects and doing decorations on my own rental property so that helps with killing the time.
     
  10. cartmandaz221

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    I believe even though we are all aiming for the same goal, there are 2 different types of nofappers in this community,
    1. People who are abstinent from fapping who would recover in weeks or up to 6-9 months, flatline would hit them in about 14 days and with many up and downs.
    2. People who are not doing nofap, but continue to fap for long time and eventually their bodies shut libido off, they would recover in a few years.

    I'm definitely from the 2nd group.
     
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  11. clapas

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    Good to hear your release last night is not sending you deeper into flatline. I did guess it would not be a big deal. You sound like slowly recovering so congratulations and don't drop your guard.

    As for the PAWS, I can relate to insomnia and anhedonia, but getting better as well. I am convinced we will come up victorious in the end. Keep it up!
     
  12. Younameit

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    if you hadn't had libido before the relapse you were already flatlining
     
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  13. cartmandaz221

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    Was thinking about writing something on day 500, then last night I had my first ever wd in my life at 5.30am on day 499.
    MW is more and more often, but libido is still no where to be found these 499 days.
    Hope the nightfall is a good sign.
     
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  14. Homo Deus

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    This is an awesome man, 500 fcking days. Keep going!
     

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