Half way there! (Experience thus far)

Ok, so I copy/pasted my journal today to share my results so far. Let me know what you think.

Day 45: Woah, I'm half way there, Woah, Livin on a prayer!

Alright first off congrats to myself for making it this far. I'm pretty proud to say the least. I think the biggest factors for making it this far have been my initial reason for starting NoFap and the Nofap forum itself. I'd also like to thank everyone in the community, especially those have taken the time to write kind and inspiring messages.
The challenge has been very eye-opening. I have become much more aware of myself and how I work. Self-awareness is a priceless thing to cultivate in your life. I can't explain the feeling but I feel more myself than I have been in a long time. Once you set standards and hold true to your principles, you start to become more alive. I just feel more congruent in every area of my life.
The shame is starting to leave. I no longer go through the viscous cycle that PMO leaves you in. The shame and guilt used to suck the life out of me.
I'm going to write the pros and cons of the challenge and the things I could be doing better for the next half.

PROS:

- Pride (Fullness, Self worth, Confidence)
- More energy (Whether excitement or anxiousness at times)
- Congruence (Not hiding any secrets)
- More attraction to real girls
- Increase in morning wood (Not too frequent but better than before I started)
- More time (If you use it wisely, don't edge)
- No paranoia about browsing history lol (My personal favorite
- No more shame/guilt (This one is huge)
- Finally the benefits of NoFap creates a momentum to improve a lot of other areas in your life, if you allow it.

CONS: These are not all necessarily bad things and only occur sometimes.

- Uncertainty (This has been my biggest obstacle, will it heal my ED?)
- On edge with no release (Sometimes it feels very uncomfortable not to release some of the pent up sexual energy)
- Frustration
- Loneliness (Don't compare to others, everyone has a separate journey)
- Less incentive to be dating (abstaining is difficult)
- Withdrawal symptoms (It's been a bit of an emotional roller coaster)
- Anger (Sometimes you want to lash out, but there is no one to face but yourself)
- No significant improvements with my ED (It's very hard to tell without being with girls and testing. I'm also aware that it's probably too early in my journey to be worrying about that.)

Improvements for the next half:

- Less edging and fantasizing (These re-enforce the addiction neuro-pathways)
- Spending my time better (Less facebook, reddit, and even NoFap
- Less oogling girls on the street (Unless I'm going to go talk to them)
- Less touching to make sure my package is still there lol
- Continue to capitalize on the momentum NoFap has given me.
- Have more faith in the process.

Thanks again to the community! I'll keep posting daily journals. The big message I want to convey is that it is worth it. If I can make it this far, so can you. Cheers.