Hard time on relapsing..

Hey guys. I just did a challenge and I made it six days. I was meeting personal goals and then I started edging. These last two days have been pretty hard because when I'm off I tend to let myself go with porn or masturbation, I work third shift so its hard to get out at night or hang out with a friend. I feel pathetic honestly. I'm wondering if anybody has any insight on fighting urges and edging towards watching more pornography for working third shift? I didn't feel guilty or bad the first time because I worked hard all week and I felt I deserved more. But now its a different story.

 

Well, as for edging, read this:
https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/what-if-i-use-porn-without-orgasm

While you're at it you may as well read this:
https://yourbrainonporn.com/why-intermittent-use-long-abstinence-binges-addiction-risk

If you're stuck at home and you're tempted by PMO, there are many things you can do. I'll be lazy and quote a recent post of mine:

"I like reading, listening to podcasts, watching documentaries, going for walks, just doing housework can be good..

A less noble hobby of mine, perhaps, is playing old computer games and reading about them etc. I quite like 80s and 90s nostalgia in general - music and so on.

Learning about things like philosophy, different religions, history, languages and so on can be a good way to put your mind into "monk mode" lol.

With all this stuff you do have to filter out triggering examples - like a history documentary with triggering scenes (maybe stop watching it and watch a different one or something). Or just look away from the screen at those times."

Apart from that, general self-help stuff can be good! Of course everyone is different. One man's meat is another man's poison. Good luck.