Hard to find motivation

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by cadia guardsman, Jul 9, 2020.

  1. cadia guardsman

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    So since this corona thing started ive being doing small streaks, the maximum i had was 42 days but its usualy 20, 15 , today was 11 but eventually i ended up relapsing because i dont feel motivation and i feel by the days pass, more and more and more and moreeee urges to fap ....and ended up relapsing because i get i dont say depressed, because im not a depressed person neither had suicide toughts but i feel more and more frustated and when i pmo its like a release of energy and i feel more lighter and with better mood, i blame that on coronavirus because i like and do combat sports and because of corona i cant do them so i have an extra energy that is never used that builds up more and more on me that eventually i have to expel it.....i do gym, walks but im never tired and im always with that energy...and frustation also because i dont want to contaminate my parents so thats why im also avoiding girls and social interactions.....
    This sucks because i think it would be a good time to do the 90 days and when things get back to normal im fully recovered of PMO....
     
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  2. Brother, your feelings are understandable but it's not about the coronavirus and you probably realize that.
    You know you are frustrated because life has been kind of turned upside down - but you need to be a bit more mentally tougher. Would you drink or smoke to soothe your problems? Of course not, you know they are unhealthy.
    Combat sports are amazing and often the winner is not the guy with biggest muscles, but the guy who is mentally the strongest.
    If you can go one day without porn, you can do it again. Yes, you might fail but that should make you stronger.
    You sir, are a fighter, and you can do this.
     
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    Thanks for the words my friend, today i relapsed twice and felt so angry about that and bored , your right i have to continue fight this and get more mentally tougher thats the goal
     
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  4. I know the feeling - you relapse once, so you think who cares and then you do it again. Once I hit 4x in a day after being clean for months! Just start again, brother. Tomorrow is a new day and you can do this.
     
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