Hard (well not so much) Realization

Hey everyone,
So im 24 years old and I have a porn addiction. I've actually always thought my use of porn was unhealthy, that it affected my daily life, relationships with friends and family and so on. I somehow have managed to rationalize its use even though I could see rather clearly the consequences. However, something happened a few days at that put everything in a different context.

I had recently met a girl who I liked quite a lot and we ended up getting quite intimate the other day. Well long story short, I couldn't perform, and felt completely inadequate. I haven't been intimate with a girl for a loooong time before this and right now I would say it's because I'm focused on my career, I'm busy, etc. while this is true, I don't think it's the real reason anymore. I think I tricked myself into only requiring porn. If I felt lonely... Porn, if I felt inadequate, depressed, anxious... Porn, my default coping strategy for any situation I deemed negative, became porn.

I never thought that I would experience PIED, but here I am and that's where I need to draw the line. There's no doubt in my mind that I needed to start this journey years ago, however I now have a very good reason to start this journey and see it through.

I look forward to starting this journey with all of you and the challenges ahead, and I sincerely thank NoFap for starting and curating this wonderful community. Porn addiction seems to be a lonely addiction because it's not an easy thing to discuss with people around you. I don't know where I would have started if not for this community.

Thank you again, and if anyone is looking foran accountability partner let me know!