Currently at day 18 my brothers. I'm writing to tell everyone about a previous porn free experience I had 5 years ago. At that time in my life (like now) I had reached a point where I was absolutely sick to death of porn and decided to quit it all together. This was before I discovered nofap. During that time I had actually managed to quit porn all together for a little more than 12 weeks. The only difference between that time and now is that back then I was still fapping as regularly as I ever was before. My goal at that time was to simply become porn free, not to stop fapping. I may not have been watching porn, but I was still reenacting all those pixelated porn fantasies in my head while fapping over and over again. In his book Psycho Cybernetics, Dr. Maxwell Maltz's explains that our subconscious minds and nervous systems can't tell the difference between an actual experience and one that is vividly imagined. So as far as my brain and nervous system were concerned, nothing had changed! As far as it knew, I was still caught in the trap of fapping to porn. I also continually tried doping myself into believing that fapping to erotic non nude booty shaking videos on youtube was somehow OK, that it didn't actually count as the same thing. For you newbies reading this, don't fall for this one. All your doing is continuing to initiate the same neuro pathways in your reward curcuity that hooked you on hardcore porn in the first place. The fact that the videos are non nude and softcore makes no difference! As a result of this approach, not only did I not acquire any of the so-called benefits, but I eventually over time gravitated right back into full time hardcore porn use. I can now see that hard mode is really the only way to go. It's the only way to truly cleanse your mind, body and spirit of this horrible scourge called porn. Stay strong my brothers! P.S: Never mind the bottom counter, I'm still trying to get it removed!