Has anyone ever experienced this?

Do you talk about PIED during PM or sex with a partner? Often PIED is not only caused by porn and addiction. Also insecurity, feeling of guilt and so on can have a huge impact on it. Did you consider going to an urologist before to be checked in order to eliminate any physical issues?

 

The answer is YES. You are for now safe because your had long rebooting streaks...but, if you continue to use it, you will fully reactivate your wrong pathways (that are still there but still weak). With every relapse you enlighten them...and at a moment you will feel the disaster of PIED again.
Just...STOP it.

 

You know your own body bro, how do you feel?

When I "recovered", all of that raw horniness came flooding back, just thinking of the word sex would make me go from flat to blood pumpingly hard in just a few seconds and I would wake up with an immovable boner more or less every morning. Can you say that any of those apply to you right now?

Unfortunately for me, after a bunch of relapses since lockdown I can't say any of that is the case now. My libido is pretty much dead and even looking at porn doesn't do much until I actually start M'ing, I also only wake up with a semi at best which quickly goes down. I don't know about you but I feel like the relapses have actually hit me harder than before I started, as if my body is getting confused by the intermittent relapses whilst recovering.

 

I just turned 30 and it took pretty much exactly two months hard mode. The thing is though I only lasted about a week with all this crazy libido, whether that was just a phase and it would have tapered back down again I don't know as I never made it any further. In your experience did you stay at that level once you got there or was it up and down?

After one relapse my libido left again but erections were still good and morning wood still there. A few more relapses after that though and it's all gone again, back to square one but maybe even worse. Before starting I would get hard from looking at porn but now that's 50/50 I would say, I definitely don't feel good though and don't think I'd have much success with a girl right now. Even when I do get hard it's kind of a numb hard and orgasms don't feel like much so it wouldn't be very enjoyable either way.

 

I think most importantly is that you change your way of thinking and gain self confidence again! Do not underestimate your successes you had in the past. You showed yourself that you can hold threw for a long period of time and that your libido comes back! This is an important step in complete recovery. Your brain will remember every successful run you had in the past. So don't let your negative think of failure overrule the great successes you had. When you did it once you always can do it twice.

I had my ED for around two years until I got conrol over it again. I would lie to my ex-girlfriend and take the medication in secret because of shame and also of the guilt. She would feel like I am not adoring her and that it was her fault. Of course that was not the case. I had lots and lots of negative experiences during sex that caused lots of security issues and vulnerabilities.

An important step for me in the recovery of ED was that me and my new girlfriend took each step in our relationship very slowly. First of all, I told her about my addiciton issue before we both became even intimate. It was a huge step and a stress reliefe. I could tell her what may could happen and explained her the consequences for my body. Being compeltely honest takes a lot of pressure away. From her and from you! We slowly did progress our intimicy over the next couple of months. The good thing about sex is that it can come in the most different forms. Who says it must be that you penetrate her with your penis? You can do all sorts of other things to get each other closer and have an amazing time together.

The hardest parts were the first few times because I still couldn't hold my erection long enough even though being abstinent form porn but we would progress anyways and continue. Noone ever had hurt feelings but enjoyed the things we could share together. It took just a few times for me until I had 'forgotten' the negative expierences I had before. I was not scared of failure anymore because there where no consequences to be expected. The change of my way of thinking was a game changer. I never experienced ED again even though I relapsed several times. EDs are really an issue in your way of thinking. Rewire your synapsis and change the way of how you think about sex. I am sure there is still potential for you too.

 

Yeah man we've just got to stay away from this crap completely now, maybe the odd relapse after a long streak won't knock us back too much but when you chain them together again you're pretty much heading straight back to PIEDville.

My streaks have been similar these past couple of months, 1-2 weeks is when the brain goes into recovery mode again but when you relapse it throws it out of loop. Two weeks is when the withdrawals kick in for me and that part just plain sucks but I know it's just something that I have to deal with.

By the way, did you notice any mental benefits from your long streaks and if so, at what point did you start to see them?

 

I had two streaks one with 3 months and one with 4 months. Besides that I relapsed constently or simply didn't follow the goal of succeeding anymore because of being so depressed about my failures.

But even after I succeeded to fight my ED and even after relapsing again and again I never would face this issue anymore.

 

For me it returned for 1-2 weeks but im not sure if it was pied or just performance anxiety. I can verify that it takes less time than the previous one to get back to normal. Just dont push yourself to hsve sex with someone just to test it. Attempt sex if you really want to and feel the urge to do so because fail to have sex can bring performance anxiety. Its just a cycle when this happens..

 

Excatly. what @UnitedWeStand said is quite accuarte. I may had some performance anxiety but never had a huge issue because of ED again.

I totally see it the same way.

 

It's all good. Just try again and aim for a higher streak than the previous good one. Try again fail again fail better..