I want t0 st0p
New Fapstronaut
(A bit of a long post. last time I posted on the nofap subreddit but the only responses I got were people telling me I don't need to write an essay.please read through this entirely if you can) Yo I'm 17 male started porn when I was 9 or 10. watching anal porn was my go to. it soon became old then I started listening to audio porn and it gave me the same rush as the porn I had seen day 1 but as always it got old aswell. Then I discovered futanari porn well not quite discovered rather seen it from a different angle. I had seen futanari on female porn it wasn't the hottest thing but I would watch it from time to time but it was just like regular porn nothing special. Until one day I was listening to audio porn I didn't even know what the futa tag meant I was just listening and then midway in the audio I realised what futa meant and unfortunately it was too late. it was a futanari on male audio where the listener performs oral sex for the futanari it was the hottest thing I had ever experienced. but I never was happy with myself doing it I stopped myself for a while and promised I would never return but in a few months when normal porn just wasn't doing it for me I came back watched it and again I was disappointed with myself it went like this on and off until I slowly delved deeper into this I was specifically attracted to the porn in which the futa is on top and the listener is being penetrated it aroused me but I hated it I hated it with a passion but I could stop it nor could I deny that it felt good. I even watched transwoman porn specifically the porn where again the transwoman is on top and the guy is the one being penetrated. I read some gay erotic posts and even those turned me on but just the sex. in real life I've never been attracted to men I'm not gay I know that for a fact because the few interactions I've had with women were just a different experience nothing sexual just seeing or talking to women. I think a big part of it is the country I live in, here I have almost no interaction with females it is actually a crime to have pre marital sex. I don't even see any women except for my family. And marriage is only possible after I have a job and my studies still have 6 years to complete. I've been scared to quit porn because then I wouldn't have any substitute for pleasure. I've kept this to myself because it is beyond taboo and if my parents found out they would probably dissown me. I think getting rid of my futa fetish is the motivation I need for quitting porn. But I really need someone who has gone through this and managed to quit to come forward and tell me that yes it can be cured the futa fetish won't stay if you quit pmo. Thank you so much if you managed to read this far any advice would be helpful.