Has anyone had experience with relapsing but finding they did not react? I feel like it was a really bad thing to do. It's possible I did not react because I am no longer interested in it. Or, maybe it was because I am flatlined, but I feel attracted to women around me in the gym today also, so it might not be that. Maybe the fake thing just doesn't do it for me anymore. I think I am starting to see them not as fantasies, but as people, who just want my attention for some reason, I don't know what and probably they don't either. I can only hope that is true, that I am starting to see it differently. Worst thing that can happen, is the images will stay in my mind, and in my next moment of weakness it will make it that much harder to forget about it. Either way, I have to commit myself to not doing it again. Bottom line, it has harmful effects, and is not something to be proud of.