All my life I have been hated. My parents hated me and abused me from childhood. All people who talk to me, eventually stop and never contact me again. I had 3 abortions and I hate myself for killing my babies. I can’t get over it. I am MO addict and unable to stop. I feel so alone all my life jet I am unable to trust people or find people I would like who would like me too. I can’t even connect with my family. Like it makes no difference if i life or die. I have no job and don’t know how to heal. I hate my mum and other people for not caring.