HAVE I TURNED GAY

Hi Shadow,

I concur with some of the above but what I will say is stop watching porn now as you are on a slippery slope! Soon enough you will be desensitised to ladyboys and then you will find something else that does it for you.

Google Dopamine and porn addiction. Learn as much as you possibly can about how they work together.

Also, check out Paul Hall’s “Road to Brighton” it will make sense to you.

Good luck.

G

 

hey guys Im almost amonth on NOFAP and I have a lot of possitive things to share with you guys who have sexuality problems.
My background is I had always been repulsed by homo acts,I didnt even want to hear jokes and I didnt even know what they did to each other until 18.
But after more than a decade of PMO mainly straight Bjs I develoepd curiosity and coupled with my ED with women I started giving Bjs to men ocasionaly with lights off.I just needed that dopamine rush.No matter how deep I wa sinto PMo I always felt grossed towards anal sex so my only fetish was BJS.And always straightI was also disguste by man on man BJs
So I have to say Ive been home alone for a couple days.Im not going to lie I got in the chatI talked to guys.I felt the anxiety the excitement the shaking of my whole body about th eposibility of secretly giving a BJ to a man.
But when he send me the pic and asked me for my adress to come...I realized I didnt want to do it.
It was really gross to me the picture instead of exciting.I think while watching porn I asociated the beauty of the female actress with the male member. Cause Ihave never watched or enjoyed watching gay porn or men alone masturbating...
So I feel that once the connection of the females to the male penis is broken Im really not interested in doing it.
I knew I wasnt going to enjoy doing it cause I never did it was just the anticipation that turn me on like walking to the guys home,and the taboo. Porn makes you think its going to be a pleasureble experience cause you see the beautiful actress,theres no man smell..but giving a BJ to man in real life is way different.
I aso knew I was going to feel bad later like I always had before.
So I felt bad for the guy for making him waist his time in the conversation but I just left the chat.
If after only 1 month Im already loosing interest in the male member I see that if I keep on NOFAP I wont feel desire to do it at all. I realize its the asociation of beautiful women with penises that makes them atractive to me. Them alone is actually a turn off.
So guys stick to nofap. if you think you are gay the answer is NO youre not! You are just watching penises every single day so thats wht is in your mind. Remove them from your life and you wont be thinking about it at all.
Im back apreciating women with their beauty and curves in a way that i havent for years. Im even seriously considering having a girlfriend or call some of my exs.

 

I do not know how I will classify myself after my victory over addiction, but porn has made me bisexual. I liked different ways of satisfying myself, and I do not consider bisexuality something bad, but in our country only traditional relations are approved, therefore, I am not specifically looking for this experience, but if it ever happens, I would not mind